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First time you ever experimented with self-harm?

User Profile: Laura
Laura December 10th, 2014

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November 16th, 2016

I started self harming when I was 9 and I would scratch myself with various objects when I was upset. I didn't realize what I was doing or that it was a bad thing. Following that I would continue scratching more violently up until about 2 years ago when I actually started cutting. Now I haven't been able to go more than a month 1/2 without self harming.

User Profile: kitkay
kitkay November 20th, 2016

I tried self harm when I was about 10-11 .I was really sad,stressed and lonely.I tried to cut myself with scissors but I couldn't cut deep enough.I considered anorexia so I could lose weight but when I tried to throw up nothing would come out.I also would punch my thighs in hopes of getting bruises. , because I thought they were "pretty".

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User Profile: Dwilson11
Dwilson11 January 18th, 2017

@kitkay Hello, I can relate to your message. I was once in your shoes and sometimes still consider it. I know the pain behind wanting to lose weight and the prettiness of those bruises. Feel free to chat if you would like!

User Profile: Survivor1Warrior
Survivor1Warrior July 3rd, 2017

@kitkay i feel same. Anorexia can kill, but if you 'survive', the shadow of it will follow you, (well, in my case) and is really hard to deal. so be always strong!

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User Profile: Destiny616
Destiny616 November 21st, 2016

I started self harming around a year ago. I had, and still have severe depression, and was hoping to find a way to stop feeling so numb. I have not overcome this, yet, but I hope I can some time soon.

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User Profile: animalcaretaker7
animalcaretaker7 January 16th, 2017

@Destiny616 Good luck! I hope you can find all the support you could want/need on here.

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User Profile: forcefulCoconut4450
forcefulCoconut4450 November 26th, 2016

i first tried after being told to kill myself, and then after my best friend slit her wrist

User Profile: jiahui2662
jiahui2662 November 26th, 2016

I don't quite remember when I started, but maybe it was like 1 or 2 years ago. And it was in the bathroom with a blunt shaving razor. It did it's job, and damn do I regret it.

User Profile: honestLime3565
honestLime3565 November 26th, 2016

I really don't remember when I started. I know it's been at least 4 years though. All I know is it's the one thing that truly makes me feel better & in control. :(

User Profile: cuddlybunny17
cuddlybunny17 November 26th, 2016

I started when I was about 14 or 15. It started more a way of harming myself to then be able to take care of myself and feel like even if no one else cared about me at least I could care for myself, I didn't even know self-harm was a thing when I started.

User Profile: Pettanko364
Pettanko364 November 27th, 2016

@Laura no, i'm still scratching my hands with fingernails, i can't dare myself to do it. but it becomes unbearable as time goes on, i really want to do it 'cause i can't breathe. the more i hurt myself, the more i can calm myself.

User Profile: sunnyTortoise1881
sunnyTortoise1881 December 5th, 2016

I think I was 8 when I first self harmed but began cutting get when I was 14 and either I do it or other email of my teen alters do it its rare I do I'm usually just scratches my other parts need stitches an I'm such a mess when I first day the mess

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User Profile: sunnyTortoise1881
sunnyTortoise1881 December 5th, 2016

@sunnyTortoise1881 I'm now 43

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User Profile: Survivor1Warrior
Survivor1Warrior July 3rd, 2017

@sunnyTortoise1881 and still...?sad

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User Profile: reliableThinker7686
reliableThinker7686 December 5th, 2016

Started when i was 13, now 26. Cant seem to stop. Takes alot to hide this every day. Causes me so much anxiety

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User Profile: Survivor1Warrior
Survivor1Warrior July 3rd, 2017

@reliableThinker7686sad, so sorry i hope you can found a way out of it and peace with yourself.

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