Documenting exam season
Hi!
So I've decided to document my journey through finals. Hopefully the last set of exams I'll be giving in a while (if I manage to pass, and I really hope I do)
@Winters12 omg im literally gonna cry you're doing SOO good and i'm soo soo proud of u. you have no idea how much i struggle to even sit and studying for LITERALLY 2 SECONDS. and i'm not exaggerating. it feels horrible and gross. esp for someone who could easily study for hours. and now i've fully lost all capability to study when i'm in my most important exam phase of life. these decide EVERYTHING. my dad is stressing me out so much i officially hate him. hearing his voice or seeing him makes me wanna k** myself. yes, i mean it. and its all about academic stress. you're here sitting through 6-7 hours and complaining about how that wasnt "great"🥺🥺 im so proud of u for that. but please remember, you're always progressing and you're doing amazing!!! but that shouldnt stop u. i remember i used to cross my own limits of studying but still feel like i did absolutely nothing. that kinda mindset is what got me here and i'd HATE for that to happen to you. i'm genuinely tearing up right now reading your updates--u have no idea how PROUD i am of u. please please please never back down and please keep going, you're everything i wish i was💗💗💗
@pinkspine
hey… thank you, that honestly means a lot 🥺🤍but please don’t compare yourself to me like that… you’re going through something really heavy right now, and that matters more than how many hours you can study.
And the thing with facing an important exam and how the stress makes everything harder? I had a situation like that years ago too. I had been preparing for a competitive exam and i almost lost my mind (and I can relate to that dad situation too... now that I'm at the dorms, that has improved)
i’m just taking it one step at a time too, not doing anything perfect. and i really don’t want you feeling like you’re “behind” or failing because of this.
i’m here for you too, okay? we’ll both get through this in our own way 🤍
@Winters12 omg this means a lot🥺🥺knowing it'll get better....that's all the reassurance i want. i'm giving competitive exams rn and honestly losing my mind. but i'm getting better, mentally. i've been kinda studying for the past 2 days...way more than the whole month. so i guess that's progress. i hope your exams go really well. lots of love🩷🩷🩷
@pinkspine
Honestly though, once you face competitive exams, you can face anything. It takes a lot out of you, I know, because that happened to me too. But you'll get through it. Always here if you want to talk, and I hope it goes well for you too 🤍 and I'm so so proud of you for trying
Already losing my mind about the exam i have tomorrow. It's my fault though...I did not study for this subject earlier because we were supposed to have 3 gap days for it and suddenly it has been reduced to just 1. Im just gonna try to cover the important topics and hope for the best.
(For obvious reasons, I dont think I'll even get time to revise (i doubt whether I'll even be able to complete the important topics), and since im a person who needs revisions to make things stay in my head, I'm terrified)
I should probably just drop out
@Winters12
You shouldn't 💙
@Amanda84
I wouldn't. But most times I think if it's all worth it.
@Winters12 please don't. it's obvious you can fight through this and make it work. i can tell you're built for this. i know u have it in u to fight back and improve. it's okay to rest and slow down at times. take it one day at a time. you've worked so hard, u dont want all this to be wasted. make the pain worth it. make the struggle you've been through everyday worth it. YOU GOT THIS🩷
Two hours until the exam 🥲
@Winters12
Fingers crossed for you 💙
Okay so after all that panic and trying to complete a 600 page textbook in a day...the paper was easy. Got 8/10 in mcqs, knew 9 out of 10 three marke questions, knew the long essays and most five markers too. Was able to write something I read over a month ago in another subject too, for a 5 mark question. I'm gonna call this a divine intervention
@Winters12
the number of breakdowns i had yesterday tho 👀
@Winters12
I knew you could do it 💚🤗
Last two theory exams before practicals start. 4 gap days before the first one, and one gap days before the second. I hope they go well
@Winters12 YOU GOT THIS
@pinkspine
sending you a million hugs
@Winters12
good luck with finals
@Magicpawsoffuture
Thank you 🫂🤍
aaaand guess who got absolutely nothing done today
Anxious again. Nothing's sticking in my head, not sure if it's the subject or me.
Gyne went well. Got most of the mcqs right, and could answer all the other questions too.
(Also got my period in the middle of the exam and the pain was horrible 😕)
@Winters12
Sorry to hear that, last thing you needed 🩷
@Amanda84
thank you for the hugs 🥺🤍
