I’m an addict and I’m miserable

@Tariq13

I am sorry you are are suffering...

I believe we convince ourselves that nothing else works when it may be possible we just have not found another item that helps because we give up looking.  

Try a meeting, in person or on zoom 24/7. Try Suboxone or brexoti. Get into treatment or detox. A dr can help. 12 steps are real helpful and can change your life. In recovery your life and relationships have meaning. Pain is replaced by art or poetry and support in many different ways. One addict helping another is what it's all about. Do service work. Advocate for addiction and mental health or whatever you want. You said you feel dead. Recovery heals us and transforms us into meaningful humans who typically give back to others.

@Tariq13

Hey,

I hear you. I know you’re in pain, and I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. But I need you to know—you are not alone in this. I know it feels like nothing helps, like you’re stuck in this dark place with no way out, but I promise you, this pain will not last forever. No matter how much your addiction tells you otherwise, you are not beyond saving.

I know it’s exhausting. I know it feels hopeless. But there is still a part of you—no matter how small—that wants to keep going, that wants something better. That part of you is so important. Hold onto it. You are so much more than your addiction. You are a person who deserves love, healing, and a life that isn’t ruled by this pain.

You don’t have to do this alone. Please reach out—whether it’s to a friend, a sponsor, a support group, or a professional. Let someone in. Even when it feels like nothing helps, connection can. You matter, and the world is better with you in it.

Please don’t give up. I believe in you, even if you don’t believe in yourself right now. Just take it one moment at a time. You’re not nearly dead—you’re still here, and that means there is still hope.

I’m sending you love and strength. You are not alone.

Much love,

Kayla 💕🫶🏻