How do you get out of the spiral?

@azurePineapple6562

Here's some things that help me.

Talk to someone. Someone who gets it. A friend. A family member. A listener. A fellow support group attendee. A monk. Helpline. I've collected quite a pool to pick from. 

First things first. Do one small chore that's bugging. Empty the dishwasher. Wipe a table. Pay a bill. Clean my teeth. Something that helps me feel a little better about myself.

Eat something. It is so much easier to make good decisions when not hungry. This can be something reasonably healthy, so I feel good  about myself. (I keep carrots In the fridge, that I can just peel and chomp. Also yogurt and muesli for a quick mix and munch). Or something very unhealthy, because sometimes I deserve to treat myself.

Do something differently. Anything. Go for a walk when I wouldn't normally. Talk with or smile at a random stranger when I'd normally avoid eye contact. Drive a different route to work. It takes the pressure off "what should I do?" when the only criteria is anything as long as its different. And it can lead to surprising results.

@azurePineapple6562

Well i would say, "Well done," and i know it's hard. to stop, that I assure u, its takes ur time, money and still just give u more problems,

Well i noticed something: what you miss is not the drug but the feeling after.

What i will tell u is if your are a religious person, first pray. Though you feel it dose not work, I assure you it does; it helps u calm down first.
Then drink water and go to the Gym, even at night.
Or take a stroll, anything that will take u away from the place.
Then also try a process, using your calendar: add a Day of No drugs.
Here is what I mean: monday off, Tuesday on, Wednesday Thursday off, Friday on, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday off, then Tuesday on. after each success, skip a day. Try this process and see if it works
Please have a great week. and notify me of your progress

@azurePineapple6562 There's probably gonna be a lot of different advice here but if it were me, I know I'd have to be mean to myself. You have to rip off the bandaid. Get rid of everything. Don't grant yourself a 'one more time'. Burn the bridge to your dealer(s). Be accountable to your friends and use the shame to your advantage. The hardest thing will probably be losing the crowd who increase the habit. It doesn't matter if they support the addiction or are just bringing negative things to your life or anything in between. You know who they are and they have to go. Focus on building positive coping mechanisms and relationships. Find something you can do when you want to use to take your mind off of it and stick to that one thing or maybe just a few. Repetition will help change the way the wiring of your brain was rewritten. You can replace the addiction with a healthy obsession. For me I tend to: force myself into a social situation. I will go hang out with people and distract myself. Or play games/read/listen to music/ watch something. It's not a perfect system but it helps. Creating moments where you are craving things other than the substances is key. But above all else:

NEVER convince yourself that it is not that serious. I thought because I wasn't often physically dependent on alcohol for example, that my periodic intense binge drinking was not a horrible thing. Occasionally I'd see through my own stupidity and curse it but most of the time in addiction I was thinking things like: "Well my family member drinks every day and he is dying. I'm nothing like him, I can't be that bad. I have a job so it's not that bad. I've never gotten a DUI. I've never had a huge accident." This thinking is dangerous. Do not compare what you are going through to anyone else. Remember why you sought help today and maybe before too. Not to mention while I thought that I was fine at 22, that most days I wasn't drinking and not every time I got absolutely wasted was a sh show, I was quietly getting physically ill. At least with alcohol I can say that liver damage creeps up faster than you think and slower than you will notice. By the time I went to a doctor for something unrelated I had stage 2 liver disease. Death by alcoholism is one of the most painful horrible deaths you can have. But regardless, even if it wasn't poison.. Well I'm sure I don't need to get into the ways it can change you. You have your reasons for speaking up today after all and this post would become biblical in length.

If you do these things and fight your fight don't ever think that you are safe. The cold hard truth is that you can't ever beat addiction. You can't have a healthy relationship with any substance you were addicted to. Your brain remembers the holds it has. You can go years, use/drink on Christmas eve of 2042 because "what's the harm, I've won the battle, I'm sure I can handle it." You have climbed Everest and now you think you won't fall after you've strapped into a snowboard just because you didn't push. Relapse is not a guarantee. But why work so hard to risk everything you have obtained from sobriety? Don't ever believe the illusion that you aren't on a tightrope. The only solution is to stay away. 

Final note: I didn't include suggestions on tools. I've heard of therapy helping, having a sponsor, treatment centers. Try these out as you want there is no shame in seeking help and tools. However it is my personal belief that you need to think of sobriety as a philosophy. You have to grow willpower and acceptance through sobriety. It takes a lot more time to grow than the weeds of addiction. Tools and help will be of limited use to you without psychologically combatting the roots of the addiction. Not to say you shouldn't seek these things even in the beginning if you have the ability to do so. This philosophy I'm talking about though, you can begin to unravel and accept it into your heart defining what it is for yourself. When you get the time after you have cooled down a bit from this battle you are currently in, think about:

Why did I seek help now (and maybe before too)? 

How have these consequences hurt me so far? What might they do to me in the future? 

Have these consequences hurt other people in my life? How will the consequences effect their future and my future with these people? 

If I went one day using and one day sober what would the end of both of those look like? A month? A year? 

What could happen to my body if I continued to use? What are the inherent risks of using these substances? (This may seem like a dumb thing to think about but the longer you have been in addiction the more lies you have told yourself about things being 'safe' or 'safe as long as I _')

And after questions like that eventually you can move on to:

What can sobriety give me? You will find over time it can be more than money and time, less guilt and less suffering. 

What can I accomplish with my sobriety that I maybe couldn't before? 

These questions might seem childish but the reason that the addiction took hold in the first place is because you started to think less of the consequence of it over time and cared less about what sobriety gave you. There's a reason so many people call it the gift that keeps giving and why people say addiction is a mindset. Most of this battle will always be psychological. Good luck

Getting out of a spiral isn’t my strong point but when my Mom quit alcohol she had to be hospitalized. The symptoms were so bad she almost didn’t make it. Don’t be afraid to ask for medical help it’s very common.

I think you won't be able to quit it all at once Start gradually by reducing the quantity and exercise regularly