Why are you still addicted?

@megamacaw

Hi mega, it's interesting you mentioned the phrase " not bad enough" to be called an addiction. I felt the same initially but later learned that it's not just physical and emotional depency that makes anything "addiction". It's also behaviors that's repetative that we aknowledge but have little to no understanding of being in control. Weed is beyond controversial and I rather not talk about that, but I do believe that their is medicinal benefit to using marijuana. But like anything else, nothing is good in excess amount. I am glad you're here to receive support! I hope you're involved in trauma sub community! See you around.

@generousSkies4958

Hi Skies, I think we all can relate to that. We were all vulnerable when we sould have been strong. But that's a lot easier said than done, right? Don't be so harsh on yourself. You're here to get support and that's all that matters. Happy posting :-)

@kitten100

Hi Kitten, that's another way of perspective. Alot of times chronic pain can bring in substance dependency, either it's from your doctor or illegal substance bought off the streets. I don't know your story but if you have not already, reach out to a doctor and talk to them about your feeling regards to being dependent to whatever substance you are using. First step is indeed aknowleging your addiction and the second step is your motivation to break the cycle. Good luck and update us when/if you can.

@kitten100

100% yes

Im trying to heal myself now and remove myself from all the pain medication because of the judgment of family and go all natural after battling leukemia and now MS with cronic pain and other health issues caused by the Flint water Crisis

@TheMillennialManner

Welcome to 7cups. No matter what stage you are in recovery, needing support in every phase of your journey never changes. Glad you're here and your effort in breaking the stigma and helping others with guidance. thank you

@friendlyNickel163

It's easy to fall back when it's accesible. I also didn't want to stop until I realized no drugs in the world gave me more love than my family and friends. I hope that you find your motivation and support soon. keep us posted!

@Chelspartida21 I feel the EXACT same way with my substance

@Chelspartida21 no one understands how hard it is to try stop that addiction unless theve been there .the weekness in mornings to get out bed .the anger .the anxiety .the fear .its horrible x

I feel you on this, i turn to my go-to. my triggers lead me to depend on using. im self aware and it’s painful when i allow myself to give in. each time i use, i tell myself “it’s not that bad”, or “its not as much”, “others do more than this”; any phrase that downplays or minimizes my thoughts. it’s a bad day, so i think it’s a good time to use. no motivation?; good time to use. flashback from the past, no i don’t want to go back; i’m going to use. the cycle repeats. i want to quit, but my brain also doesn’t. i know there’s negative consequences, but my brain doesn’t want to see it

@tony5795

Hey Tony. Thank you for sharing that and I can sense your struggles in yours words. I personally do not have bipoiar but I've known someone with bipolar type 2 whom I was close to. She also self medicates to slow things down when she is manic. She explained being in being a manic cycle feel incredible and wanted to utilize it in the best way as possible. I guess for her being manic helped her through her lowest part of bipolar. She has drugs often made manic episodes go by slower without dipping really low after. It sounds unreal and I am sure it's not a easy life to live out.