Exhausted
Where do I begin. Raised all my life, Catholic. But have become born again in my faith, since accepting our lord Jesus Christ. So, many things are becoming clearer. But I feel so appalled for, some trying to drag me back into deception. Already exhibiting depression, I tried hiding my failing mental state. Because, my family is very set in their ways and I knew they wouldn’t allow me to grow. Seven years later, and what I’m still translating for them. I hate speaking Spanish. I hate having to learn more false idols, than of our lord. Looking back, it seems many of us, have been taught to idolize even our culture above him. I can’t stay awake for too long, so I have to settle for the nearby church. Yes, I hold many people there dear. But I really wish and need to find a sound church. Not, one we I need to once again go back and forth between two languages. Alright, I need to learn more about him and his teachings. No I want to. I don’t want to hear anything about things, unrelated to him at church. More so, I know as learn more of his word, the path will become clearer too, which will bring much relief. So many people, forcing and have forced me against my will; to partake in things against the lord. I don’t want to ever encounter them again. I can endure being screamed at, mocked and scoffed; but don’t let me deceived again. You pulled me out in time; but I fear encountering some of these individuals. What if I can’t forgive them for their nastiness or follow suit in their paths. While, it’s awful being left to rot as a guinea pig. I would do it all again; if the alternative kept away from the truth. My pain doesn’t seem so strong compared his on the cross. And lord I need you, to just sit in your presence now.
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@secretFriend2402 It sounds like you're going through spiritual attacks and deception/manipulation. I'd like to pray for you (and those around you). Please feel free to read and pray this any time. May God bless you 💗
Heavenly Father, thank You so much for Your mercy and love that covers me in every moment. Thank You so much for saving me and freeing me from sin and bondage on the cross. Thank You for blessing me and being with me. You are worthy of all praise!
I cast all things into Your hands right now--my situation, and all anxiety, depression, worries, fears, dreams, and desires. You are in control, even when everything feels chaotic and uncertain. I confess my sins and lay them at Your feet. I repent and ask for Your forgiveness for all the ways that I have disobeyed you. I ask You to cleanse me, reveal the areas that I need to change, and help me to turn away from all evil. You have freed me, so I want to live in a way that honors You. I trust that your grace will guide me and help me to become more like You.
I pray for protection from all forms of evil, including idolatry and manipulation. Protect me from all attacks of the enemy. Let me not be swept into something that dishonors You. Give me wisdom for the words to say and the actions to take in every circumstance to obey You (even when it's difficult).
I also pray that You protect and deliver those around me from evil. Open their eyes and soften their hearts. Let them come to the truth, turn away from false idols, and grow closer to You. You are the one true God. I trust that Your presence, goodness, and truth are being revealed to everyone now.
I also pray for spiritual discernment, clarity, and focus on building a closer relationship with You. Lead me by Your Holy Spirit during prayer and when studying Your Word. Let me not be distracted or deceived by the enemy or by things of this world. Help me stand strong in You and be a light to others as You've instructed me. Give me patience to forgive where it's needed and strength to endure.
Lord, I lift this prayer up to You and thank You that You've heard me. Thank You that myself and those around me are being protected, healed, and impacted so greatly in all aspects of our lives. Thank You that You're always with us! I have faith in Your guidance and praise You that this prayer is answered!
In the wonderful and powerful name of Jesus I pray, Amen!
Continue to trust in God and in the power of prayer! He's got you!!
Proverbs 3:5-6 -- "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths."