Tired & Discouraged
Hi, I have been dealing with a severe medical issue since August and there have been major delays in my referrals and care (that were/are outside of my control). I’m so physically weak and emotionally exhausted at this point. In September, I got triggered by past medical neglect/trauma and sought mental health treatment (didn’t work out). I’m not permitted to drive at the moment, but when I can get to the church service I volunteer (it’s been a while). I’ve been so diligent in seeking care and it seems like every door is closing. On top of that I’m unable to meaningfully connect with my local church because I’m essentially homebound. I’m feeling really lonely and have been questioning God’s love for me. Medically I’m struggling to access care, and I’m not experiencing any supernatural healing lately. I’m only 33 I’m not ready for this. I’m tired of suffering. Feedback/encouragement/prayers are deeply appreciated. Thank you all for your care
@anonyTown1835 I'm so sorry sweetie 😥 it's so hard when your world gets turned around like this 🙁 and when everything just seems to be to much to handle, well that's when you can lean on us 💖 I'm always here for you, we all are 💖 God loves you, and although sometimes that's not easy to see and you start to question your faith, he is still there for you always💖 God works in mysterious ways, so just don't give up on hope💖 being ill isn't easy I understand that, the pain the tiredness the constant suffering it can really get you down🙁 but I hope you get all the support you deserve here at cups💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 I will keep you in my prayers 💖
@anonyTown1835
You've been through so much.
It can be so tiring especially when we are left waiting.
Sending you my best wishes 💜 💕
@anonyTown1835
I declare and decree that you will be made whole and healthy. Ain't no one got control over this but God. He's using you for his good work. Maybe this sickness is just a bump in the road and after you get over this hump, God wants you to share your testimony to encourage others. That even when you felt alone, God was still by your side.
Keep going. For all of us. And one day in Glory, God will open his arms wide telling you, "Well done, Good and faithful servant. Even through the thick and thin, you remained faithful to me."
And you know what...why not do something different. Start a new activity, a business, a YouTube channel, something different.
I'm so sorry. I hope that God does a miracle, but if he doesn't please know it is not because he hates you, or you don't have enough faith. This world is broken because of sin, and this means terrible sickness and pain like you are going through exists and it is absolutely awful. It is not his will that you are going through this. Some people will try to tell you everything that happens in this world is his will. We know that can't be true or why would the Lord's Prayer, (Jesus teaching his disciples how to pray) say to Ask for "Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven." The verse that comes to mind is John 9:2-3 "Rabbi,” his disciples asked him, “why was this man born blind? Was it because of his own sins or his parents’ sins?” “It was not because of his sins or his parents’ sins,” Jesus answered. “This happened so the power of God could be seen in him." If God does a miracle, the power of God will be seen in you, if you continue to seek him and serve him the best you can as hard as it is, the power of God will be seen in you. I truly hope you can find good community within this group as well as community "in real life" for lack of a better term, but actual humans around you in your vicinity. I will be praying for both your physical and mental health through this trying time.