Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-In Monday June 18th 2018
Good morning or good evening everyone!! This is my first check-in. I hope this will give everyone an opportunity to either just say " Hi " or share how you are doing today. Whatever you need or want to say. ❤️ As survivors - and this is what we are - we often experience a lot of emotions. It's a rollercoaster ride sometimes minute by minute, for sure day by day, and year after year. The high's and low's can be extreme. What are ways you deal with your rollercoaster ride? I was reminded last night, a good way is just lean into someone. Thanks you @Daisy. Also, lean into my faith. I think when we lean into others and into faith the ride feels a little less scary. I actually found a picture of a rollercoaster 🎢 for myself and I look at it when I get overwhelmed. It helps me feel a litlte control because it puts an image to my experience and fear. So my challenge for each of you today is - can you find an image to put to a fear? Or an image to help sum up a part of your journey. There is no right or wrong. ❤️ Share whatever you feel comfortable sharing - praying for each of you today!!!
@KLM3278
He KLM,
What a great first post!
I have this picture in my livingroom, it is huge. I have no clue how I got it but it is a great picture to look at when I feel overwhelmed.
I love that man that is just so confident.
@MaschaV
Wow!!!!!!! THis is a great picture!!! It is incredible - beautfiful to. Thank you for sharing your "strength" (smile) image....you are strong!!!!
@KLM3278
Thanks! So are you!!!
@MaschaV hey Masha, thanks for sharing this one with us today 
truly amazing and inspiring! love it! i hope youre having a lovely rest of the day!
@KLM3278
Weldone on your first post.
I dont know how to up load photos i know at my age u prob should but id rather be outsde than on my phone. Though i found my phone to b a great way of keepin/feeling safe espec wen able to come here. I have a favourite song that i sing. And a frame with the words he leads me by quiet waters. I find that it can sometimes remind me that although it scary i can find peace in him and picture calm waters in my head. Im not sure anyone will understand that but that helps me.
Today is difficult just triggers. Ive left the place finally after 4 days back there. Although ive left and im away from him my head is crazy.
@honestLand773
Honest, thank you for sharing! I LOVE what you shared - That's Psalm 23 (Big smile) This brings me a lot of comfort also. I LOVE that you have special music that helps you. I also do that!!! Music and images and even the outdoors are fantasic ways for us to "lean" into the stregnth that we do have. We really do have it!!!! Someitmes the triggers and up's & down's try to say we don't - but we DO!!!!!!!! There's another verse that comes to my mind. "I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengths me." I repeat this one a lot!!!!!! Thank you so much for sharing!!! I'm glad you are away from him and sad your head is crazy feeling right now. But remember, that's just a "feeling." Feelings are always true...but they are NOT always right. Here is a big safe hug if you would like one. (Hug and smile)
@KLM3278
Philipians?
Thank u for offer of a hug. Im never sure to accept because my head syas il get hurt and sometimes my head doesnt mind getting hurt because it says i deserve to be hurt and punished. But is it like my heart that just wants a safe hug like ive seen on tv the hug between child and parents wen the child gets upset and the parent hugs them and keeps them safe. Is that werid?
@honestLand773
That's not weird at all !!! I'm that way to! I sometimes see that and my stomach aches and I cry because I want that but can't ever get that. So I understand. I really want you to know that you don't deserve hurt!!! Please let me be the opposite voice you're hearing! Let my voice be louder!!! You are worth SO much! You DO deserve safe hugs and love!!!! Nothing that happened has ever been your fault!!! You did NOT deserve any of that!!!!! You DO deserve to feel safely held!!!! It can be hard to believe all this - but it's true!!!! I know your healing journey will slowly show you how special and you are one day at a time. Go at your own pace! You're doing great just talking on here!!!
@KLM3278
Thank u for being nice. One day mayb
@honestLand773
Exactly - one day at a time! We are all here for you!!!!
@KLM3278
I just read overwhelemed
get used to itrgering like posts...idk with huge space or picture.
:D
@conscientiousPineapple1782
Would you like a safe hug today? 😊
@KLM3278
ok 😊
@conscientiousPineapple1782
Here you go...A VERY BIG SAFE HUG 🤗❤️
@KLM3278
<3
@conscientiousPineapple1782 safe hugs from me too if you d like them
@Hope3729
@indigoBeing9907
Powerful. Can you share what it means to you?❤️
@KLM3278
Too much pain, at breaking point, feeling like I'm falling apart and wanting to hide. Hopeless, head down, hands covering the face, scared what the future holds.The fire represents anger but its only me its burning.
@indigoBeing9907
That is a powerful picture. Thank you for sharing that. How are you feeliing today?
@KLM3278
Thats very kind of you to reply,
I'm ok thanks, it can always be worse eh ?😜😛
Great first post by the way, how are you today?
@indigoBeing9907
love picture
Hoping to maybe get to this point one day
@crimsonLime6525
Absolutely!!! Go at your own pace! Healing is a very personal journey. When you feel safe enough and when you feel ready, you will be able to. ❤️
@KLM3278
@KLM3278 couldnt have said it better @crimsonLime6525 you ll get there, and on the way to it you have us supporting you through any up and downs!
no grown up on my safe beach
Hi KLM
I think of life like the sea, sometimes it's calm and sometimes it's rough, the waves can be little or big, and occasionally there is a bad storm.
Today the sea is a little rough. Things between my mum and sister are stressed and I have become the person that my mum is venting it all to. There has been shouting which I really don't like, I think it may be a trigger. I don't feel comfortable here.
Love and hugs
@FloweringBunny hey there the sea is definitely a great example!
i am sorry to hear that your sea is rough today. I understand that shouting and fights in general can be really frustrating or even triggering - here s your safe place. Take as many deep breaths as needed today.
Sharing a calming sea gif with you, because also your storm will be over - hoping it will might brighten your day a litte bit.
@Hope3729 Thank you, the gif is very soothing Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
@FloweringBunny i am sure it will. But i‘d like to share my favorite thought of all time with you . You dont have to wait until tomorrow. You can always start your day again. Right now. With this moment. With this message - take a deep breath and start again if you‘d like to <3
I need help. I
@BeeLeigh bee you can do this!! sending you lots of strength and support.
@BeeLeigh
How did the cleaning go?????? Yes!!!!! Yes!!!! It was SO hot here where I live to!!!!!! ugh!
@KLM3278 @Hope3729
I haven
@BeeLeigh
He Bee, i am sorry it feels like that. If I could I would love to come over and help out. Then, when we are done you could come help me.
I don't know about you but I think if I would ask someone, anyone, if they could please come help me they probably would. But I am not asking. I am afraid of being vulnarable like that. They might say no to begin with but they will see what a terrible mess I have made. I don't want to show them that. I would rather feel horrible and lonely in my own mess.
Maybe you do live in the middle of nowhere where there is literaly noone. But maybe it is about overcoming fear and breaking a cycle. And it might be a start of a new friendship even. Would that not be awesome? Win-win
I am glad the temperature is dropping. Makes it a bit more bearable.
You are awesome Bee 💖
@KLM3278
Well done on your first check in.. I love it and the responses that its drawn. My peace comes from looking out at our green valley that I'm so fortunate to live in. And it reminds me of the green pastures in Psalm 23.When I'm not at home, I can see a picture of the green valley in my mind and this calms me.
@rozie
Ohhhhh thats precious for me to!!!! "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want!!! He makes me lay down in green pastures..." Yes!!! I love that also. "He leads me by still waters!!!" ❤️❤️❤️ It's hard though sometimes to allow ourselves to lean into that beautiful promise!!!!! It was hard for me yesterday. ❤️ I'm SO glad this is your image ❤️
I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster and I just keep going up and blasting down with no point of getting off.
I can't schedule my health appointments until I figure out if my mom is having hernia surgery first.
@Rebekahwriter13
Oh, I hope you can find out about your mother's surgery! Thank you for sharing what's going on with you. How are you today? ❤️
@KLM3278 I'm hanging in there.