Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-In Sunday June 17th 2018
Hej an Good Morning Alle! Ok what a busy week. Yep... still moving lol. It takes alot to move a farm by hand and hand cart, but we're almost done after 2 months. Yesterday we finished off fencing the new horse pasture (a project of forestry I believe it would be called). We rounded up our horse Sif, and brought her to her new home. Sif was very nervous to come out of her olde pasture and it took a good bit of encouragement, but she toughened up a bit and came with us. When we got her to the gate, I had to walk through the gate to show her it was safe, but she followed reluctantly. Once she was in we shut the gate and un-hooked her leader rope an let her go. Sif Reared up an howled and made a run through her new pasture (mostly wooded). We had to get near the fence at opposite ends of the pasture (I got up in a cool tree to keep out the way), and we had to alert her everytime she got near a fence. She was fierce and wild the way she ran about, truly a sight to behold. It was really fun helping her learn her new bounds, does this make me an Americanacht Cowgirl? She settled in once she saw she had food and water, and we let her chill for the rest of the day. This morning I awoke fierce to bad dreams, as I often do. As I went out to sing my prayers, I crept out silent. I snuck up on Sif as she was sleeping. Sif is a Morgan horse, Morgans are the kind of horse traditionally used by the U.S. Cavalry (still in use). Morgans are a bit unique in that they love to lay down and take naps (kinda looking dead if one isn't familliar). So anyways, I managed to sneak up on Sif whilst she was laying down, yep... Couldn't resist... BOO!!! lol. Yep m a jerk sometymes lol. Up Sif popped with a fierce whinney, and ran some laps to escape what she thought was a threat. As she calmed some, she realized it was me, then she came over (I was sooo laughing) and she expressed her dislike of being startled by bonking me with her head lol. After a few minutes more she got over her frustration, I began my prayers and she walked around her pasture with me for an hour an a half as I sang and sent my songs. An unpleasent start for me, and for Sif I guess (my bad), but as the Sun rose and the light and songs filled the woods it became a most peaceful morning for alle. Today was like taking a walk and greeting the day with a great friend. 
So how was your week, any moments of magik for you? Drop us a phost and speak what is on your mind today. This space is safe and it belongs to you alle.
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@Raveninthelabrynth hey there!
my day is going good.... i am slowly learning to trust again. theres a boy that i really like and who knows about my past and he s so supportive and understanding. but i dont know how to make this work and what i can do to make it work...
i hope your having a wonderful day
@dynamicHemlock1736 Only one thing I can speak on any relationship...
COMMUNICATE!!!
Day is going awesome here so far thanks 
@Raveninthelabrynth i agree with you. he and i already talked about my past and last night i even opened up to him about my flashbacks and panic attacks and when they happen etc.. he told me i should think of some ways he can help me when i am experiencing them until next time we see each other, but actually i dont know how he could help me when im having a flashback since no one has ever been next to me while i panicked.
@dynamicHemlock1736 Maybe you won't panick if he is about?
Having him learn some Grounding Skills With you would be a good idea I would think.
Hi raven .. I always love to hear your stories from the farm they are so descriptive they transport me and make me smile :) it must be a huge quantum of work for you tho .
I'm okay, met my therapist last week. Was horribly triggered and down last week , just drained too so going to see a doc this week. So looking on he bright side.. allowing my self to feel and validate my experiences . Just allowing myself to be heard .
@energeticPenny8 Well Done Penny. I hope the Therapy works out well. It's not easy, but if w work it we can get through.
@Raveninthelabrynth thanks raven ❤
@energeticPenny8 Much Love Hon.
Hi, @Raveninthelabrynth
Sounds like you had alot of fun on your farm
Today started off with a 5am rise and im wrecked today, yesterday was an emotional one and I guess this is the after affects today.
Im full of anxiety, jitters, shakes and that awful uneasy feeling. Part of me has an urge to get my postings on yesterdays check in deleted, but im resisting...its good to share and given how much im feeling it today I obviously needed to. Must try and pick a better day to do it next time though ,:)
Its funny how old memories you thought you had dealt with still hold alot of power sometimes. Ah well I can take it easy this evening after work :)
Hope you are all having a good day!❤
Ah well
@indigoBeing9907 the check in's and forums are here for you to speak as you need to. Thought and Memory are the most powerful ravens indeed. But from these comes Wisdom, and thus balance and peace.
Keep up the great work you have been doing, I know it's tough but it will pay off.
@Raveninthelabrynth
@MaschaV Hej Mascha, You Are Fabulous!
@Raveninthelabrynth
Hahaha, thanks! So are you
@Raveninthelabrynth
Is there chat tonight btw?
@MaschaV As long as Lily makes it in there will be
@Raveninthelabrynth
Oke, cool! 
everything feels lost 
and I need to change the world overnight and don't know how
@Sparky1 Hugs Sparky, chan't change everything overnite. A long process change is
@Raveninthelabrynth i don't know how to do it
@Sparky1 Keep reading your books, doing your excercises, and seeing your Therapist hon, best I can say but keep trying
@Raveninthelabrynth ok sorry
No need to apologisw nor hidehom really :)
@Sparky1
If you figure it out, let me know, I would love to be able to do that! 
I am sorry your feeling lost. But you know what, you are not really lost. Look around you. Can you do the 54321 grounding excercise?
Hang in there Sparky!
@MaschaV thanks
i think I am lost :(
ive done grounding and more grounding and still feel lost, loss loss so big
@Sparky1
Your thoughts are lying to you. Tell them to be quiet for a while. Maybe listen to the song again. When your thoughts are quiet.
Do you have your anchor present? Something that we had to have on us, that we learned in the book group. That you can watch or touch. To remind you that you are here, you are now.
You can do this, I believe in you.
And yes, as Raven said. Keep practicing, talk to your therapist.
Hi Raven
I love the way you describe Sif :)
I have nightmares too. The one I had last night was particularly bad. I woke up feeling so awful and tired. But I got up and went downstairs to see my bunny and had a nice cup of tea. My day was quite nice, I went for a walk around a nature reserve and saw a lot of sheep :)
I am struggling with the thought that maybe I am just ungrateful. My mum has changed I think, maybe I have just exaggerated everything that happened before and I have been ungrateful for the things she has done for me. It's very confusing for me. She is treating me differently than she used to. She is behaving like a nice person. But I know that she wasn't like this before. I don't understand what has happened.
Love and hugs
@FloweringBunny
@FloweringBunny Hej Bunny, Glad you were able to turn your woe around, that's what it's alle about.
Sorry I don't know about your family situation, but I can say that people do change
@Raveninthelabrynth
Moment of magic: seeing family all getting on and having a right wee laugh.
Today been mega hard finally away from him. Just to stay in the place tonight.
@honestLand773 Sorry part of they day was rough, keep focusing on that magik part.
Yet another long day passes.
Much Love an Respect
*Raven bows to Alle an fly's away
@Raveninthelabrynth
Is any body still up?? Any body out there??
Hello!!
@Raveninthelabrynth
Here
@GuardianAngel77
Bye
@GuardianAngel77 Hi Angel, I was here for thirteen hours, I am human though and need to rest occasionally lol.
I am on EST/U.S. time if that helps. :)
@Raveninthelabrynth
OK thanks you