Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in: Friday October 5th

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@Kat

What is your goal for Friday, Saturday and Sunday?

I kinda gave up on goals...idk safety and comfurt is what just wish

- How are you feeling going into this weekend?

Gona meet with friends

- How did the week go for you

Today was great let go off controll...and just enjoyed day

How are you feeling going into this weekend? I'm dealing with sinus, but I'm determined to get some cleaning and writing done.

- How did the week go for you? It's was stress but majority was worry and over thinking.

I dont know what Im supposed to feel..I only know Im scared..a little bit of my heart will break on Monday because where I started to believe a bit of me belonged..it maybe didnt at all

- How are you feeling going into this weekend? Not good - because he is going to be home. And the thought of him being home makes me sick. I know it is only for less than 48 hours, but it might as well be a week.

- How did the week go for you? I struggled with getting things done - but felt a little better about that today. I think I found a routine that I can live with for now - when he is not here - and I have included you all into this, so I think that will help a lot next week. However, last week I did not do my best, or even my baseline. To be fair to myself, we confirmed quite a big medical diagnosis for my daughter, and found out that she has a couple more rare diseases that we did not know about - oh, and because they are genetic, I have them too - just not as bad as she does. Which explains why I was not diagnosed, for me they were normal disadvantages, for her, they are major aspects of her daily life.

Sorry about the long rant

@Kate

Hi Kate. I'm super late here today because work was busy. After a 14 hour day I'm finally home.

What is your goal for Friday, Saturday and Sunday?
Friday - Well the day is already gone pretty much. Tonight I will try to sleep. That's really a goal every day, but maybe today I can sleep for at least 3 hours.

Saturday - It's my day off work. A goal is to go outside. I hide in my corner on Saturday's. Maybe just go get the mail. I haven't gotten the mail in a couple of weeks. It's just bills and requires walking to the road to get. I can't get it at night when I get home because it is dark.

Sunday - Eat something. I mean that's probably a good goal for Saturday too, but it's unlikely to happen.

How are you feeling going into this weekend?
I am physically and mentally exhausted. Battling for a reason to live is tiring.

How did the week go for you?
I am conflicted about this week. I made some positive steps, which is good. I also have been in a very low point. Trying to deal with some things and having a lot of mixed feelings about it.

Never ever tell someone they r being dramatic when sumthn that seems little to u is massive for them..it will kill them inside over n over..even if said out of love for the person..u know ‘cruel to be kind n all that its not always the best way in the middle of what is a heartbreaking situation for someone (and yes heartbreaking is what it is to then n not an ‘over the top word not for me in my situation ryt now..if u love someone dont invalidate their personal feelings towards a situation cz what really is going to be life changing for them is not for u..

if the effect on them will make it difficult for u then walk away cz thats sumthn we r used to..maybe thats gona be better then living with the repetition of words in a brain that is on the ‘constant go n that knowingly turns on the ppl it loves the most out of fear that they will turn on them first..

much love to the ppl who have battled this out with me though literally being sucked into my cycle..its a draining responsibility n not one anyone would take on lightly..but a lot of it has to be on us..for when we r strong enough..not when others feel we should be strong enough..