Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Saturday 20th of October, 2018
Hey there! Happy Saturday to you, I have really missed all of you! 
How are you all feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything on your you would like to share? :)
I mean, I hope you all have had a nice week but either way I just want you to know that I am really proud of you for being here right now and just being as strong as you are. You are doing a really good job! ^-^
Today, I think I would like to share a little bit of me with you just as you share bits of you with me :)
Lately actually good things are happening with me and I have got reminded on multiple fields of my life that I am doing a good job and I am valued and that puts me to an...interesting place. I have noticed that I do not know how to accept compliments or even handle positive things happeneing in my life but at the same time since my life is going well I feel guilty of complaining about it or just feeling the way I do.
Of course, I know I should not feel guilty about the way I feel or even about expressing my feelings and so with that mind I started to look up some articles and I have found that I am not alone like this and actually that helped me and I want you to know as well that you should never ever feel bad or guilty even for the way you feel, for your insecurities or for expressing your feelings, ever!
For today I have been thinking of a little exercise based on the above that may not be easy. - I mean I know it is always hard for me but I usually find it useful.
Try to think of a thing you are good at, you love about yourself, you have done well lately or anything really and just say it out or write it down in a first person form, like "I am really strong" - because you really are! - and so on. I know it may sound or seem weird said out or written down but it is not.
You do not have to post it here but if you want you can do it as well as I am always glad to hear from you and get to know how amazing you actually are more and more! :)
Or - of course - you can just simply skip any and all fo the questions and the exercise and just say hi and just be here with us, we would be happy to just have you sitting here with us as well.
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@redmark Finding it difficult to put words to paper, so to speak. I think I'm just going to say hello to all and go back to bed.....
Hey there @affectionateNorth4018 *offering safe hugs*
We are so glad to have you here with us now!
I can imagine that life can be just hard and tiring at times but if you want I think you could join us in our pillow fort, if @crimsonLime6525 is okay with it as well, of course, and just hide from it for a bit :)
No pressure tho, just a hello is enough as well and I am glad that you have stopped by here at least but if you ever feel like it we are here for you, to listen, to support or to just hide in pillow forts :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
I'm sure your pillow fort is amazing, but today, I just need to be alone.
@affectionateNorth4018 Oh, okay, don't worry about it. I am glad that you have popped in and said hello anyways! :)
@redmark
Hey there red
Hey there @Avaray *offering safe hugs*
It is so nice to see you around here and I am always looking forward hearing from you!
I hope you have had a good week or at least that you are having a nice weekend so far! :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Thanks red x
I'm ok thanks
Hope you had a good week off x
@Avaray I am glad to hear that you are okay! :)
My week has been....well, other than my ISP deciding that they won't give me internet for three and a half days so far this week I would say it was mostly good, thank you very much for asking. :)
@redmark
Id like to be removed from the taglist
Hey there @DeborahUK *offering safe hugs*
It was really nice to meet you here and I do really wish I could have get to know you better but of course we will respect your wish to be removed from the taglist I just really wish you the best because you are truly an amazing person and I do truly look up to your - and others - work here before me. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
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@DeborahUK Oh....you should not be, but I will contact @Kate to make sure it will get resolved. I am really sorry for the inconviniencies!
@redmark hi
Hey there @crimsonLime6525 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to see you around here and hear from you!
I hope your day is going well and if you ever feel like sharing anything I would be glad to listen or just sit around here with you if you want :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark just going to sit in the corner for a little while then go hide
@crimsonLime6525 Can I sit with you? :)
@redmark I would like that, hardvto ne round people but scared to be by myself at the same time Id that makes sense
@crimsonLime6525 Yep, it makes a lot of sense actually. I mean, I do struggle with quite some anxieties as well and I can only imagine how hard it can be after all that you have been through but it truly is just nice to have you here with us and sit with you! :)
Do you want to maybe build a pillow fort? - you know, for the "hiding" part of it that you have mentioned. :)
@redmark pillow fort sounds like a good idea
@crimsonLime6525 yay! :)
Although, it was quite some time ago since I have last built a pillow fort so I suppose we should work on it together. :)
@redmark I don
@crimsonLime6525 Oh, I am sure it will be awesome! :)
I mean, now thinking of it my pillow forts were more balnket forts back then anyways, but I guess we cannot really go bad here.
Hi Red
I'm feeling lonely, and upset because this is the 3rd weekend in a row that I am alone at home. I feel unwanted because there's always something more important than me, every time I bring it up I'm told that this is just a busy month.
This week has been so stressful. I'm struggling with uni and I feel so stupid because I don't understand the work.
I've been told I have good perseverance, but I'm not sure it's a good thing anymore.
Hey there @FloweringBunny *offering safe hugs*
We are so glad to have you here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you are spending this weekend alone as well. I can imagine it has to be hard and I want you to know that you are important and you are always welcome here to share whatever is on your mind, talk with us or just sit with us! :)
I mean, you do deserve attention and I want you to know that you are wanted, I am always happy when I see you around here and while I know this is not the same I just really want you to know that you and your feelings are important.
Especially with the stress of the university it can be really hard and really just be a breath of fresh air to have a nice weekend. For me anyways, I remember as wel that I have struggled in university quite some as well but I do not think that makes you stupid...or, well we both are stupid in a way but I still made it through of it and I know you will as well! :)
Perseverance is a really imortant thing and a really good trait to have especially facing challenging tasks like university can be and I am really proud of you for being so strong and doing such an amazing work. ^-^
Why are you so unsure about it tho? - I mean, I think it is truly great!
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark *hugs* I think maybe I damage my mental health by continuing things I struggle so much with. I'm not even sure it'll be worth it in the end.
@FloweringBunny Oh....yep, Iget that, I can sometimes hold on to things not exactly healthy for me as well but on the other hand I think it has got me through a lot and it is kind of useful still. I guess it is all about learning when to let go of things....which is really hard, for me anyways, but I think perseverance is still a great thing overall, if that makes sense. :)
@FloweringBunny I think having perseverance is a great thing and something to be proud of
@redmark
Hi Red, good to see you.
I hope everyone has an okay day.
Hey there @practicalIdeal2007 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to see you around here as well and hear from you!
Thank you very much and I do hope that you are having an okay day as well as a good week. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Things are still pretty difficult.
@practicalIdeal2007 Aww, I am sorry to hear that as I can imagine it has to be really draining but I want you to know that you are doing a really good job and you are not alone here and if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you!
No pressure tho, of course. :)
@redmark
I've needed sleep oh so bad, but I have not been able to sleep lately. Tonight I made a little nest of sorts in my closet. With blankets, pillows, a lamp and a book. A little safe place that is even safer than my corner. I managed to sleep for 2 hrs.
@practicalIdeal2007 Oh, that nest sounds pretty awesome!
I am really glad to hear that you have been able to get some sleep like this and that it has helped you to feel a bit better and you have that safe place for you now. :)
It was actually a good week.
i did a really good job at making sure i had regular meals and water.
sleep.
it takes all my time though.
Hey there @RiverTamer102409 *offering safe hugs*
I am so glad to see you around here and meet you!
You know, actually getting enough water and sleeping kind of a struggle for me as well so I think it is really awesome that you are able to get these things done so well and I am really proud of you for it. :)
Hopefully you will be able to recharge and relax this weekend as well and go into next week well rested.
Stay awesome!
It seems several of us are struggling today. I thought I might leave this here.
You are not alone
You exist
You are real
You are capable
You are valuable
You matter
You are not alone
@practicalIdeal2007 should pin that to the wall of the pillow fort, if I read it often enough one day I may actually believe it but not today
@crimsonLime6525
It is diffcult for me to believe these things for myself. I do really hope that we can all believe them for ourselves on day.
@practicalIdeal2007 This is really amazing and so are you!
Thank you so much for sharing this with us! :)
I fight sleep insomnia and apnea with my sleep problems, everythjng seems bigger, especially dealing with energy.
Hey there @Rebekahwriter13 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to see you around here!
I am sorry to hear that sleeping is so troublesome for you tho as I know that lacking sleep can really make everything just so much harder. I do hope you will be able to get some sleep soon. Probably it would be worth consulting about this with your doctor or therapist as well if you have one - and if you haven't done so before.
I mean, anyways I really just hope that you will be able to get some well-deserved rest soon at least to catch up a little-bit with sleep! :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
I see my sleep doctor next month.
I'm researching new therapists.
@Rebekahwriter13 Oh...that sounds like a lot of time but I do hope it will be helpful for you and that you will be able to find a good new therapist as well for yourself :)
Until then - and just anytime in general - we are always here for you so feel free to reach out to us anytime here or just join us if you would like to just sit around, you will be always welcome!
@redmark
I appreciate it.