Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Saturday 22th of September, 2018
Heyo every-amazing-one! Happy Saturday to you all!
I am always so happy to come hear and to hear from you all again. :)
You have made it through on other week, or at least to and other weekend, which is pretty much the same for me and I am just so very proud of you all!
How was this week for you? How are you feeling today? :)
Although....today I will still have something to do, today is actually the monthly meeting of my transgender self-help group for which I will be leaving soon for a bit but I promise that the first thing I will do when I get back will be get here and just spend some time here with you!
I mean, anyways, it can be pretty stressful for me still to go to these things as this whole gender issue is still pretty hard for me to face but luckily I do have my little teddy bear besides many others that I can just put into my backpack and just have with me as my "secret teddy bear" to support me through all this. ^-^
This made me wonder tho, do you have any plushies or any sort of thing that can provide you comfort like this maybe? Something that you would take into a pillow fort with you!
I do really look forward from hearing you and I do promise that once I will get home the first thing will be to just be here with you and I am sorry I have to step away for a little bit now!
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@redmark
Be safe and hurry back
@scarletPear1945 Hi Pear!
@Kate
Hi Kate
Hope you are having a great day
Hey there @scarletPear1945 *offering safe hugs*
I am so glad to see you around here again although I am sorry that I was not able to be around today until now but from now on I am here and I will be around for the whole weekend now so if you are still around and you ever feel like sharing I would be really glad to hear from you here.
No pressure of course! :)
Stay strong and awesome!
my big sister raveninthelabrynth was the best person for trauma on here. She kept me safe and saved my life so many times. This place isnt the same without her. I dont know where to turn right now and I dont want to worry my sisters either. I cant go back home and I dont want to go back to hospital. I feel completely lost ryt now :(
@lightVillage54
I really miss her too
Did you want to talk to us? I can lend you my ears
@lightVillage54
I know luv, I miss her here too.... but we'll always be there for you, your sisters always will be there for you, we won't ever leave you alone, that's what family is there for, a family keeps each other safe, no matter what.... a family forgives, a family loves and understands.... that's what we are... a family.... and I love you my lil sis
@courteousNorth5140 I love u too sis
@lightVillage54
She was my big sis also and she still is for me 😞 I miss her too 😞 I hope shes okay
Hey there @lightVillage54 *offering safe hugs*
It is really nice to see you around here! :)
Although I know the circumstances are not really the best - to say the least, probably. I can imagine you do miss raveninthelabrynth and the others from here and just looking back at what they have done here they were truly amazing and passionate people and I just wish I would have been able to know them so I cannot really even imagine your loss. I mean, I can only promise that I will try my best, try my best to at least keep her and the others' legacy here alive eve though I know I will likely never be that good at this like they are.
You know, I cannot ask for your trust, I know that, but for now I am just glad that you are here and giving me and this whole thing a chance now and I just hope I will really be able to leave up to those before me. I can promise I will try my best and if and when you are feeling ready to share about the way you feel or just whatever is on your mind I would be glad to listen.
For now, I can offer you hugs, although I am not sure if you are okay with those as well I would like you to know that I am glad that you have shared this with us as the way you feel is important to us, even if we may not be able to help with it but I do hope with time I can get to know you better and support you through all these strong feelings you have to deal with! :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark thanks for ur kind words. sorry for posting on here. I wasnt thinking straight. I didnt mean to upset others. I appreciate ur support though. Thanks.
@lightVillage54 you have absolutely nothing to be sorry for!
You have just shared the way you feel and that was exactly what I have asked for, isn't it? I mean, I am glad you did so if anything, even if I may not be able to really help you with this it do still appreciate this chance you are giving to this place still after everything and I just truly hope I will be able to live up to all those before me. :)
For now, just take your time and there is no pressure of course but I just do hope to see you around some other times as well!
@lightVillage54
Dont be sorry for posting and sharing your appreciation and hurt Village. You are allowed to grieve and express your pain, and I think others who feel the same appreciate you voicing those feelings. Im glad you had a person here that meant so much for you and im sorry she is not here anymore.
@LoveFromSara big sis is with me always. shes a part of me now. Always will be. She has gone above and beyond what anybody ever has for me. I think that was one of the main problems here. This site (or ppl in control of it) didnt want anybody to stray from the path of rules and regs..if raveninthelabrynth hadnt done that I would be dead now. She saved my life the first time I went to her for help. She got me to a hospital after an overdose and under the care of the mental health system. She didnt give up on me and never has. If thats the mistake of the listeners in trauma - caring enough to break a few rules to save a life then this site shouldnt exist. It kind of defeats the purpose of 7 cups
I couldnt ever be angry at the ppl involved though cz if it wasnt for them I wouldnt have the best big sister now nor would I have gained another sister through having her in my life.
@lightVillage54
Hi Light, sorry for the late reply
I did read your words and im moved by the love and care you seem to have towards Raven, and she towards you. Im glad she did what she did and it warms my heart to know that there are people out there who goes above and beyond, even though it means breaking some rules, Im also glad im able to say I know more people like that in here and I do believe there are people like that out in the real world as well, people who will stop at nothing to help others, who gives and who cares, who belives in you and belives you are worth helping.
I hope you can take that with you in your continued healing, because you are deserve healing and care and love and hapiness
@LoveFromSara thanks you so much. I know Im lucky to have my big sis and I know so many miss her here too. I cant always see how blessed I am but I do love big sis as much as my blood sisters x
Crumbling from the inside out 😭
@crimsonLime6525 Hi Lime. Im sorry to hear that today is a struggle for you. Sending you good thoughts and hugs if you want one.
Hey there @crimsonLime6525 *offering safe hugs*
I am really glad that to see you around here!
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling like that tho. I know this can be really hard sometimes to deal with but I want you to know that you are not alone here and that we are here for you if there is anything we may be able to help you with! I mean, your feelings are importnat and they matter and so do you - and you deserve to be heard! :)
Of course there is no pressure, but if you ever feel like sharing anything I would be just glad to listen here! ^-^
Stay awesome!
@crimsonLime6525
Lime <3 Im sorry to hear things feels like they are crumbling, sending warm thoughts and care. Feel free to talk about it if you wish. Know you are not alone
Crumbling from the inside out 😭
@crimsonLime6525
I hope you get to feeling better real soon
@redmark
I am new to this community today, and browsing everthing makes me so glad I found it.
Today I am doing homework, because my ex husband triggered a crap ton of anxiety with just a text message this week. *facepalm*. But my workload is still doable, so that's a win. I'm getting there. I hope everyone is having a nice relaxing Saturday. :)
@sapphire5763 Hi sapphire! Welcome! Do you have another name you prefer or can we call you sapphire? Hoping you get some time for self-care today amidst all the work.
@Kate My husband took the kids out so I could focus. So thankful for him! Sapphire is fine for now, I like that I don't have pressure of my real name being out there. :)
Hey there @sapphire5763 *offering safe hugs*
Welcome here! We are so glad to have you around here with us!
I am glad that you are finding this place helpful so far and I hope you will like it around here! :)
Ohh....I am really sorry to hear that your ex-husband has triggered you like that as I can iamgine it has to be really hard but I am glad to hear that you are working through like it like that and your workload is still manageble. :)
If there is anything we may be able to help you with or you would just like to vent we are always here for you as well! ^-^
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark Thank you for your kind words! Recovering from that marriage has already taken many years becuase we have to coparent. I'm not really sure what goals I have but I'm working hard at school and pushing on. Or at least trying to haha!
@redmark
Hey red. I do have my teddy bear that I keep hidden at home. I wish I could take him with me. With the exception of virtual hugs, he's the only one I am comfortable hugging me. That might sound strange, but it just is. To take with me I have my fidget things. Little things I can put in my hand and fidget with when I am uncomfortable or scared or stressed. I use them at home a lot too when I am upset or thinking.
Today is hard. I found out something from the doctor that is upsetting. If I could figure out how to make enough money to live without leaving the house, I'd probably never leave again.
I hope your support group went well.
Hey there @practicalIdeal2007 *offering safe hugs*
I am really glad to see you around here!
Oh, I think you have mentioned your teddy bear before somewhere and I think it is really nice to have a teddy bear like that! I mean, I always take my backpack everywhere with me so nobody does really question it or why do I have it with me and that teddy bear fits in it and, you know, just having it there with me somehow helps :) - Also, on crowded trains - one of the most anxious places for me in general - there is nothing strange in having your backpack in your lap and just holding it close to you :P
Anyhow, those fidget toys look really interesting and nice as well but I am yet to try one out sometimes. :)
I am sorry to hear that you are having such a tough day. I can imagine it has to be hard to get news like that as well as I think I would really like to have a job from home like that as well. - although, I feel like sometimes it is good that I have my work actually getting me out of the bed and just socialize even on the worst of my days...but I mean it is really hard some times I know that...
My support groupd went well, thank you, we have been actually talking about non-binary identities which may be more fitting to me then actual transitioning but I am still figuring this thing out yet, so it is early to say, I just know I feel - and usually act, when I can be myself - very feminine. - but that's enough about me, I have been rambling here enough already :)
If there is anything we may be ever able to help you with we are always here for you and I would be glad to listen here anytime. ^-^
Stay awesome!
@redmark
I don't use the offical fidget toys much. The few I had I broke or threw and lost. I have a squishy ball, an old earring, a rubber band and some other things like that I use.
I wish I could say more about what's going on right now. I'd have to explain things that I'm not able to explain. The whole thing is causing a lot of feelings and I'm not so good with feelings. Several times I've wanted to do impuslive things, and a few times I have.
I understand what you are saying about not really sure about gender. I'm FTM, some people knew that but I guess I just annoucned it to anyone who reads this. Some things happened recently and it got me to thinking. Why am I trans? Is it a defense mechanism? Who am I really? If I'm honest, I don't really know. I don't have the words and when people ask if I'm male or female I don't really know what to say right now. I told someone recently when asked that I am a person. They thought I was being sarcastic and got angry. I've gone a little off topic here, sorry about that. I would delete it all, but now that I've finally said it I don't really want to take it back (I might change my mind on that). Thanks for sharing your struggle Red, it gave me the courage to write this.
@practicalIdeal2007
Aww... *safe hugs* - if you are okay with it
It sounds compliated for sure but you are just so very brave to face it, I am so proud of you!
I am not really good with feelings either and how to verbalize them so...yep...I guess I kind of understand that part and I am just so happy that you have still tried and shared with us and, if you ask me, you have done a really good job there. :)
I am glad I was able to help and give you a bit of courage. You know tho, what I found more and more about myself as well is that I do not want to be a woman or a man either I just want to be me. Like the best part about this place was for me that I was able to just act the way I felt natural and not caring about my gender - all that until I ended up getting hurt and hurting someone with this at the same time - so since then I am trying to be more transparent about my gender struggles. Which is hard, considering I do not really have much of an answer for it yet, so really all I can share is the struggle part yet but I believe in that I will be able to figure this out sometimes and I do believe in you as well and that you will be able to get this whole thing sorted out sometimes as well!
I have a bear too. I've had him for a very long time. His name is Boo Bear, or just Boo. He calms me down when I'm anxious or scared and when I need hugs he's always there. Always.
@affectionateNorth4018 stuffed animals are good for hugs. I have one called an Anxiety Blob that helps me.
Hey there @affectionateNorth4018 *offering safe hugs*
I am so glad to hear from you around here and meet you! :)
Boo sounds really awesome! :)
I am really glad to hear that you have him and that he helps you so much. I can totally get behind it as well that teddy bears - and stuffed animals in general - are just such an amazing thing to have and hug.
Also, @Kate - I love that name "Anxiety Blob" ^-^
My teddy bear is Marshmallow because she is white and soft and sweet and fluffy :P
Stay strong and awesome!
Wish I had someone to talk ☹️
so [edited by Anomalia for cursing - Trauma community rule] angry and sad
Aww @sensitiveShade5337 *offering safe hugs*
I do have two ears - or eyes in this case, I guess - if you ever feel like sharing anything here!
I mean, no pressure of course but I just want you to know that you and your feelings are important and if you ever feel comfortable sharing I am here. :)
@redmark
i don
@sensitiveShade5337 Hey, it is okay. I am glad that you have shared about your feelings and I am really sorry if I have made you feel bad. You can just take your time and do these things on your own pace, I do not want to ever pressure you but only to know that you matter and I am here IF you will ever feel like sharing anything! :)
@redmark
I cant personally message you so I guess you are a teen and thats the reason I cant, but stop being nice to me... I dont deserve that
@sensitiveShade5337 Oh, I am sorry. We are both Adults but also we both are members so we can only communicate here still. :(
As for being nice to you: I think you do deserve it. I mean, I am probably really just a stupid and naive optimistic but I believe that everyone is deserving to be nice to, including you! :)
Of course I do not want to make you feel uncomfortable but I do believe in that and I will try to keep on being here and around for you and others as best as I can. :)
@redmark
whatever you cant help me so I shall better get the out here. I even embarrassed myself with my stupidity
@sensitiveShade5337 Oh....why do you think you have emberrased yourself? - I mean, I really do not think so you did and I am not sure what made you feel like that.
Hi. The past few days have been calmer, im very thankful, as things were bad there for a bit. Im glad to be feeling safer and more stable. Having a relaxing weekend, gonna watch a movie with the wife. My psychiatrist wants me to get involved in an lgbtq support group or organization, but idk how i feel about it. Im also a bit nervous since I decided to stop taking my meds and even tho I feel better Im afraid my doctor will be mad. Oops! Well see i guess. Its a chilly day here, gonna stay cozy under some blankets and hide away for today. Hope you are all good!
Hey there @Npepsicola *offering safe hugs*
It is so awesome to see you around here again!
yay! I am glad to hear that things are calmer for you and that you are able to relay for now. I mean, I think those are pretty good plans to have for the weekend and hopefully these calm times will remain for a while for you :)
Hmm...you know I have just had my monthly meeting with my trans self-help gorup. It was very scary for the first time to go there, like my axnieties where through the roof, I will not lie, and even to get there to get to know about this whole thing was a real struggle but looking back to it just helps me. I mean, I do not know where I am going with this, I guess just sharing my own experience about this and also, if you feel like I would be happy to support you through this as best as I can and just listen if you ever feel like sharing about it!
Oh...it's is certainly a tough thing as generally I would say with meds go with what your doctor says - as I am no expert - but on the other hand you are the one who know yourself the best and if you are feeling better without them for now that is good! Although I feel like you should still share it with your doctor - I mean the whole thing, not just that you are not taking your meds but also that you are feeling better now and what were your reasons of not taking them to help his/her work to find the best threatment for you. :)
Anyhow, no pressure, of course. For now I just hope you will have a relaxing and cozy weekend under those balnkets of yours! ^-^
Stay strong and awesome!
