Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Saturday 22th of September, 2018
Heyo every-amazing-one! Happy Saturday to you all!
I am always so happy to come hear and to hear from you all again. :)
You have made it through on other week, or at least to and other weekend, which is pretty much the same for me and I am just so very proud of you all!
How was this week for you? How are you feeling today? :)
Although....today I will still have something to do, today is actually the monthly meeting of my transgender self-help group for which I will be leaving soon for a bit but I promise that the first thing I will do when I get back will be get here and just spend some time here with you!
I mean, anyways, it can be pretty stressful for me still to go to these things as this whole gender issue is still pretty hard for me to face but luckily I do have my little teddy bear besides many others that I can just put into my backpack and just have with me as my "secret teddy bear" to support me through all this. ^-^
This made me wonder tho, do you have any plushies or any sort of thing that can provide you comfort like this maybe? Something that you would take into a pillow fort with you!
I do really look forward from hearing you and I do promise that once I will get home the first thing will be to just be here with you and I am sorry I have to step away for a little bit now!
I'm feeling incredibly lost, and I don't know where to turn to.
@humorousBeing8966
Hello Humorus
So sorry you are feeling lost. I can relate to that. I hope you will soon find some help. You are in a good place for it.
Hey there @humorousBeing8966 *offering safe hugs*
It is so nice to see you around here! I am really glad that I have got to meet you here!
I am really sorry to hear that you are feeling lost like that - and I suppose the whole situation here is not helping either. I mean, I can offer that I will be here and I plan to stay for a good while but I know these kinds of things take time. I just want you to know that I am here and it is totally okay to take your time and whichever way you may feel now is totally valid but you are not alone here, me and many others are here for you and I hope that with time you will be able to feel comfortable here. :)
No pressure tho at all, just take things at your own pace and share only if and when you are ready to do so! :)
Stay strong and awesome!
My day has been eventful it's a lot honestly
Hey there @Hope7879 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
I am sorry to hear that you have had such an eventful and hard day to deal with today tho. I can imagine it has to be really hard and draining when you do not have the time to proper everything properly, when things just keep on happening but I want you to know that we are here for you if there is anything we may be able to help you with or you would just like to vent anytone!
There is no pressure of course. For now I just hope you will have a relaxing rest of your weekend just to recharge a little bit for now :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
*trigger *
I lost my virginity today and yeah it was awful. I am dealing of going through the whole situation in my head over over again . I felt I had a choice but sort of didn't he kinda at first like just told me to take his belt off and stuff and other stuff like I didn't have a choice but he said are you okay are you sure and I said I'm okay.. After he said it looked like when we were in ththeiddle of it like you were dealing with "issues" I could tell something happened I said yes I was I have trauma it happened so quickly and it hurt like hell.. . I just feel awful and I want to cut and die but I can't and plus he is over age so I promised not to say anything at all. . I'm underage . . I just felt like I needed to lose it I didn't feel like I needed it so I just got it over with .... He is someone I randomly met online didn't even know him I don't know his name either..... . Or I do I just don't remember.... I feel awful
@Hope7879
Oh Dear, I am so sorry, it sounds really terrible. *offering safe hugs*
First and most importantly: are you safe now? - I mean, I know you cannot really feel safe after things like this for a while but I hope that you are at least in a safe place now!
You know, it is complicated...it always is. Since you are underage you cannot technically give consent in a situation like this but on the other hand I can see you are being really resentful about this. I do not know the whole situation so I do not want to judge here but one thing is for sure that it was NOT yout fault, no matter how it may feel. Sometimes our brain can just turn into autopilot, especially situations like this and that is not something bad you have done.
I would suggest to ask for help. You do not have to deal with this alone. I mean, reaching out here is an awesome first step and I am so very proud of you that you have came here and shared with us as I know it had to be really hard. *offering safe hugs*
You do not have to talk with people you know, there are hotlines for this as well - although I am not sure where you are from but most places at the word there are, well, rape hot-lines and there is some support system at place for this.
Just keep in mind that you deserve help and it was not your fault and there is no need for you to deal with this alone. Please try to reach out for some help!
@redmark
It wasn't rape I swear I agreed just after I regretted it and during I didn't say no so I just did what I had to do.. . I'm okay I swear... Just extremely depressed and disgusted with myself... In the eyes of the law it's statutory rape but I won't get them involved because I swore I wouldn't say anything
@Hope7879 *hugs* - if you are okay with it
You do not have to do anything you would not like to right now, I am sorry if I made you feel pressured. You know tho you matter. I mean you do not deserve to feel this bad and if nothing else I just want you to know that you are not alone here for the time being and if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are here fro you anytime and if and when you may feel ready to share this with anyone please do not feel like you are a burden and you do not deserve it, because you do deserve to be heard and cared about.
As I have said, I know that this whole thing is just way to complicated, that's why I was not really trying to really judge anyone in this whole situation. You know it was not your fault tho and you have the right to do what's best for you - whatever that may be at this moment.
Just please take good care of yourself and just feel free to reach out to me or anyone else here or in "real life" as well :)
Stay strong!
@redmark
Thank you love... *hugs* ... I Know... I'm just sort of scared to even say anything because if I did say something I'd be in huge trouble as well as him...
@Hope7879 I can only imagine how confusing and scary this whole thing can be for you know. *offering safe hugs*
How are you feeling now? - I mean, that is the most important thing and it always will be. You are the most important person in your life and you and your feelings ARE important and I just want you to know that you do matter and whatever have happened was not your fault and you have the right to ask for help and get help if you need it.
For now you can really just take your time tho, these things most likely will not come in an instant and it is totally okay, it is totally okay to just take a little bit of your time just processing this but even with that, I want you to know, you are not alone here.
@Hope7879 I dont want you to feel too bad [edited by Anomalia for invalidating and unsupportive content], Nd im virgin myself so i cant tell you how it feels but i figure you two will forever be connected in some way, [edited[ i dont know the age difference, you should tell your parents since youre underage female if you were my daughter id definitely kill the guy literally ,, lol fr ...anyways it is more about you feeling better than getting back at him.... so i suggest you try to purify your thoughts so you can attain back some of your innocence save yourself for the person youre going to spend your life with, i believe in that way you will feel better and can feel better about yourself. have a good life child 💚💜 ..................... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHFFivDHX4c
@SabrinaGraceDoesntExist
thanksss
How was this week for you? It was a lot, it didn't stop until today.
How are you feeling today? :) I'm very tired and extremely sore
Hey there @Rebekahwriter13 *offering safe hugs*
It is always so nice to hear from you around here!
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a tough week but I am really proud of you for making it through and I hope that you will have a break from it sometimes soon as I can imagine it has to be really exhausting to go through all that. I mean, if there is anything we may be able to help you or you would just like to vent anytime we are always here for you as well and I do believe in that together we can get throught this - and I do believe in you!
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
I appreciate your positive thoughts.
Good morning
about to get Granny Taxi Service in gear. Don't know where the day will lead me.
Hey there @scarletPear1945 *offering safe hugs*
Happy Tuesday to you! It is always really nice to hear from you here! :)
Oh.....Granny Taxi Service? 
- I mean, I am not sure what it is but anyhow I do hope you are having a nice day today!
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Granny taxi is me having to take everybody to their destinations
