Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Thursday 14th September 2017
Greetings to you all!
And a cupful of hope and encouragement! Very simply want to share the well known words from the Chinese philosopher, Lao Tzu with you.. "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." The first step begins taking you away from where you are now. So its important to begin the journey with this step, but equally each step that follows one after the other is significant. And so it is on the journey of healing from trauma.. one step at a time , little by little. And because these steps can seem very tiny and tentative at times, they don't always get noticed. Wondering what difference it could make if we did pause and notice.
How is your Thursday going? Have you noticed a step you've taken thie week? Or a step someome else has taken? Does it make a difference when this is noticed? Or pop in to say hi Love to hear from you. This is your space and a safe place. x
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Everyone in this community is doing their very best to keep going (and keep each other going), moment by moment, step by step, and for that alone we all deserve a pat on the back. ⛺❤️🐢
@melliotm
I just gave a pat to myself and said 'Good job'! I'll try be more good and respectful to myself
@sensitiveShade5337
Oh good for you! x
@melliotm
Like this thank you melli... and yes pats on the back for everyone! x
This week I've struggled with an uptick in hyper-vigilance and a general sense of vulnerability, insecurity, and overall lack of motivation as I continue to explore and feel the impact of things from the past that in many instances I've never truly acknowledged or accepted until recently, much less allowed myself to grieve for. It's unbelievably exhausting, especially when managing emotional flashbacks and sleep disruptions continue to be part of the dubious recovery experience. It tests ones patience, depth of resources and resilience, often requires that one reach for support amid the heightened sensitivity and the sensory overload, which demands trust.
And extending trust after having suffered injurious violation (compounded by years of inner criticism and self punishment) is still triggering in and of itself.
So. Even though ATM I'm once again cowering in bed, periodically jumping halfway out of my skin at every little sound (because my post traumatic stress cup runneth over lol) and basically had to force myself to eat this morning while reminding myself that, despite all false evidence to the contrary, I am indeed safe, I will take my own advice and give myself a pat on the back for carrying on, for trying my best, regardless. Even though I'm not always fully convinced that it's true, I deserve to heal.
PS trauma sucks -- let's throw bricks at it.
Today's been alright. Exhausting, but alright. I'm trying to write a paper but these stupid freaking kids that live on the street behind mine are being extra ridiculously obnoxious tonight 😡🤦🏼♀️
Have taken several steps back today. Doesn't feel like I'm taking any steps forward in a long time! What's wrong with me?
@fairmindedFriend3493
Well, since you're in the Trauma check in, perhaps this quote I saw quite some time ago may be of some assistance:
"There is nothing wrong with you, something wrong was done to you."
@fairmindedFriend3493
Hey, its okay. there are days and times when the steps seem to be going backwards and I think we can all relate to this. Calls for kindness and patience,( which we're often not good at either) and maybe support from others, to take the next step forward. Thank you for reminding us that it may just be one step forward and two back... but having begun, let's continue this journey. We are here in support, a hand to hold, a listening ear,a comforting voice, and hearts that reach out to you,. x
@fairmindedFriend3493
And a wram welcome to you! We're glad you've joined us here.
@rozie
feeling lost and disconnected. All this typing and I am not good at this. My day has been messed up all day. I have tried to get help several times today at 7 cups no success. My body has been in pain all day. My family has been BUTs all day. The Dog has been clinging to my every step and I am just Pissed.
@bubblegumPuppy68
Oh dear so sorry to hear you're having a day like this.. feeling lost and disconnected... and being in pain is wearying too.Can understand where you've got to. And Dog followig your every step would suggest that he/she's picking up on something going on for you too. Glad that you were reaching out here for support, but a pity that you didn't find a suitable listener. Did you go to Browse Listeners and look for those who deal with trauma /PTSD or perhaps someone here in the Trauma community.. you can send me a PM if you wish. What do you do for a distraction.. a movie, music.. can sometimes help at times like this. x
Current mood:
& thus I feel
(So much easier ATM to simply GIF my feelings vs trying to properly articulate them.)
@melliotm
Well its very expressive!... And hope you are able to slow it down... slowly and steadily.x
@rozie
Better today
@bubblegumPuppy68
That's good to hear. x
