Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Tuesday 22nd August 2017
Good morning!
Wherever you are, hoping today will be a good one, and if its not so good that some light will shine through the clouds and bring you a joyful moment, an insight, or a knowing that you are not alone.
Quote for today is from C.S.Lewis : "You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending."
How is the marathon going? We know the theory of running a marathon, others tell us, experts tell us, we can read about it, we can watch videos. So we can prepare ourselves and we can train. But its not until we put it into practice... we are actually running the marathon that we learn how tough it is, how difficult it is to pace ourselves, how it hurts, how we wonder if we can go on, and how we need our "cheer team' on the sideline encouraging and supporting us.And we have likened this to our journey of healing from trauma. We can know the theory and this is a guide, but we find that the practice is harder and longer than we ever expected. We will have bad days, not so bad days, and maybe good days. So what keeps us going...Is it the small victories we notice, is it the hope of healing that will change the ending.
How are you doing today? What would you like from your "cheer team"? What keeps you going? Pop in to say hi! Love to hear form you. This is your space and a safe place.
@rozie I would not make a good member of the cheer team. Today already even though it is morning although I have been up since 4am or abouts. I just feel not in control, scared of become someone different, scared of becoming less, tired for no reason, sad and ok at the same time. So just Blaaaah
@AmalieAnne
Oh sorry to hear how its been for you... days like this are rough. i've had one myself. Maybe we need the cheer team!
@rozie
How are you doing today? What would you like from your "cheer team"? What keeps you going?
I'm not feeling well today. I'm feeling isolated, alone, and like I'm doing something wrong. I don't understand people. When they try to get close to me, and they're a man, I think they just want to sleep with me. I can't tell when people just want to be my friend or when they want more. I'm feeling scared. I don't know how to keep going today. I feel like I lost all the momentum I gained during my road trip, and I feel like I'm stagnant again. I'm scared about myself. I'm scared about my ability to do this. I don't even have enough joy inside me to feel like I care whether others are doing well. I don't know what happened. It all drained out of me here in the past week or so.
@singercrystalspirit I don't have many words nor much wisdom today, merely exhaustion and empathy. So have some fort to share while passing feelings of the extremely overwhelming variety do what they do when we have them (which, besides feel awful to endure at times, is indeed eventually pass, thank goodness). ⛺❤️🐢🍫🍪
@melliotm
Thank you ☺️☺️ *shares fort happily with lots of safe warm cuddles*
@singercrystalspirit
Hey Singer you know after a time of momentum like you had on the trip, its not unusual fro a "down time" to follow. Often its weariness too, so if you can just sit with this, hopefully it will start to improve and then you will feel the benefits of your time away. try to be kind and patient.. this too will pass. x
Sounds like a number of us are hitting the wall, myself included. Can't articulate ATM cos words are hard with everything racing and scattered inside my head. Compassion and solidarity to all. ❤️❤️
Good morning everyone, I'm going on a self care break for a couple weeks. I wish you all well and see you when I get back!
Hugs, Mary
Hoi hoi alle and good mornng. :)
My heart goes out to those of us strugling, and I'm here today if anyone needs or wishes to chat.
I wish you alle peace, and I hope you can find some fun and happiness too.
Much Love alle, Raven :)
Sorry not been around. stuff happening i have no control over. Mum scheduled for surgery now mid sep which meant we could go away when they were due. And her stress echo went ok today.
But her brother got admitted yesterday and is in intensive care right now. It doesnt look good. Hes 82 and almost 15 years older than mum. Organs failing with an infection from gall bladder. I was never that close to him but hes been like a dad to my mum since her parents passed and i dont know how to be strong for her.
Just numb and no idea what to do. Can't think about anything else.
Wondering if things ever get better.
Feel worse cos was really really down and not wanting to go on earlier in the day. No choice but to go on now. Scarred and useless but here.
@inventiveOrange1
I'm glad you're here, and we're here sitting with you, So sorry to hear that your family is going through so much... its a tough time for you all. Wanting to bring you tea and honey and comfort. x
Today's been a good day! I got a lot done at work, therapy was good, and now I'm home and I'm getting ready to build a shelf cuz one of them came in today! 😁
As a side note....it can cool down aaaaaaany time now!!! (And yes, I will also be complaining when it's like -30F in the winter 😜)
@BeeLeigh
Good to hear this! x