Traumatic Experiences Daily Check In - February 1, 2018
Hi Everyone,
Today is the 1st of the month. For me, every Monday, and every 1st of the month is like clean slate day. I get a "do over" in something I wanted to do, something I feel like I could do better, or whatever I feel like I can take a do over in.
Do you have anything you'd like to do on this "do over" day? A clean slate with something you'd like to work on/do? You don't have to answer these questions specifically if you do not want.
How is your day today?
Anything in particular you are hoping to do the next couple days or over the weekend?
Do you have any thoughts or goals for this new month?
Can't wait to see what you are thinking.
Yah. So I've decided the problem is me. And I'm just not fixable or loveable nor really have anything to contribute or that anyone wants. I really thought I was seeing a way through. But I gueess it's just too latr and I'm not who i was. And I feel pathetic and whiny when I really just want to be at peace within myself and happy again. To like myself and have an okay life even if there's no one else in it.
I hate it that I'm giving up like this. I'm just so tired of failing and not having anyone who has my back. Or really who even notices me.
@SpruceRaven
Hey we're here with you and we have your back so please don't give up. We also understand how it is to get to a low point and most of us have dusted ourselves off and picked ourselves up at some time. Stay here and keep talking with us... there is a way through.Sure its hard to see right now, but it will be there for you. x
@rozie Thank you Rozie.
I won't be visiting this site anymore for awhile. You serm like a great group of people. I just don't fit here...and I sound whiny and babyish even to myself. I wish all of you great healing and success. Have to stop spinning fantasies about who I am and what I can do....tough but oh well. I'm tired of pushing the rock up hill. Tired of begging for help.
@rozie You are an amazing soul. Thanks for bring so kind and supportive at just the right moment. You have shown up like that a # of times in the brief time I've been here. This Comm. is lifted by your presence. Take care.
@wizeakre they are so fortunate to have you here. You have helped so many.
"I think people bully others in order to feel or to take their insecurities out on others".
YES! ...And not just online. Anytime to control, manipulatr, same, or changr toe "story".