Traumatic Experiences Subcommunity- Daily Check-in: 9th March, 17
Hey you, huggable teddies <3 <3 How has your day been? Has it been easier than the previous day? The biggest obstacle in trauma and PTSD are the memories.. So let's make good memories to make our lives happier <3
Where's my pin-striped piano playing puppy?? Lol :P
I feel stuck in this house, it is beginning to feel like a prison, I remember feeling this way a s young teen, my parents did not let go anywhere much, and I felt so isolated and alone, and now I am beginning to become scared of never getting out of this , I feel bad for my kids ,I don't like being to take them places, we only have sat and sun. Till 5 pm, my pain is not helping, I want to scream at times!
@jr50 I feel the same way.. I wasn't even allowed to go to the movies by myself.. Feels like we might suffocate and die in our prison.. But we need to fight and get out of here! Please think about how can you make that happen <3
@PuppyLove13. I wasn't allowed to go anywhere alone either and I didn't have many friends, so yea, I am feeling like I am back at home with my parents as a teen, my husband is very selfish, he doesn't see what his decision is doing to me and the kids, I have tried talking, but he never has anything to say, if i try to bring up the subject he ignores me, him treating me this way is very much like the life of trauma , I left behind many, many years ago. I am trying to make a sensible plan to move forward, but my brain is scrambled.
@jr50 Then try doing something for immediate relief? Like a first aid plan? And then you can think more :)
@PuppyLove13. Thanks for your advice, hugs, puppy 
So checking in here. Maybe I should do that instead of on feed. Not sure where to put things or where I belong.
2nd day on a med to help with anxiety, depression and motivation.
I don't care who knows anymore on here and I apologize if I offend you. Just looking for others who can relate and offer supportive tips to improve my life right now.
This past weekend my spouse, who drinks every night, was abusive with me. And then I caught him in bed with another woman.
Just trying to figure out where to go from here. We are trying to make it work and learn to support each other.
@themainjane I'm sorry sweetie that sounds horrible.. You must be in so much pain right now and I apologize.. My partner was abusive with me as well and he cheated on me too.. So I know that you're feeling shattered and you feel like everything you ever did was a waste.. But that's not true.. You need to set your priorities straight now as it may be a good thing that happened.. Please be sure that your partner will give you the love, loyalty and respect that you deserve, if not, any effort you put in is just a waste.. You may think it's difficult to leave (In case you have to), but it's not.. You will feel so much more alive and you will love yourself which again must have been destroyed by now.. You need to live for yourself and not for him.. Please just make sure that you're not in pain and that you decide according to what's best for you.. Whatever you decide, we're all right by your side <3 Hope you check-in everyday :)
@PuppyLove13
Thank you. So much. I wasn't sure saying it was the right thing to do out here.
It's good to know I'm not alone.
@themainjane You can talk abbout whatever you'd like here :) We usually keep the graphics to a minimum so your post didn't break any rules nor did it offend anyone <3 So go ahead and share your pain with us.. We're here for you :) *Hugs*
@PuppyLove13 Hello I am doing okay today. I had a therapy session today, which was helpful, but also she said some things that really triggered me, so I left feeling upset and started to feel depressed. There was a peer support phone session at 5:30 also, but my phone died and I wasn't able to talk to anyone about the therapy session. I feel really alone and stuck in a cycle of being lonely. I think my goal for this/next week is to really try to call a few people and try to open up.
@Daydreamer47 I'm so sorry you had a bad day! But you got through it! I am soo proud of you for that.. I really hope your day gets better :)
Glad I did not give up when I felt like it yesterday. Today was a lot better day:)
