Feeling the guilt again...
It started with my grandfather when I was 5. It didn't last long and I dont even remember it but the psych said I still have trauma. Recently it was uncovered I feel like because my, well, the person who was supposed to be my step father was trying to be my pimp. Idk I feel crazy talking about it but I need to. Please help idk what to do. I'm safe now but I still feel all the pain I did. What do I do
@nalashyan
Hello Nal💙
That's so painful to read that your grandfather and your step father did so horrible things to you. It's really very painful. I myself keep remembering new details as the time passes and I judge myself too you are not alone, Nal.
Nal, trauma memories are complex and sometimes we carry them deep inside till the time we feel little safe to start bringing them out or feel them. It's our mind's way to keep ourselves safe and know that it's a normal response and trauma can affect us after many years/time too.
The pain as your psych too said might be still there and you can along with them work on it to process, grieve and heal. Glad you are safe now. Sending you kind, caring, full of acceptance beams❤
