I just feel so stuck
I feel like some days I am nothing but trauma. I know they say that you can’t let trauma define you, but it’s not that easy when you literally grew up being continuously traumatized. I never knew my real dad, I was physically abused by my moms boyfriend for the first 10 years of my life, and I was in an emotionally and sexually abusive relationship in my teens, and then again in my early 20s. I’m 29 now. It just really doesn’t feel like it will ever get better, it just all feels like a waste and I just feel like I’m worthless. I don’t even know why I’m typing all of this out, it feels like I’m just rambling into the void.
I think I understand. At least, I can feel your pain. There is indeed a void. I understand. I believe that just enough beauty will continue to come along so that you will find the strength to move forward. Step by step. Tiny bit by tiny bit. Every bit counts. Even one kind thought about yourself counts. Your life is worth some much. Even though people around you didn't reflect that to you with their actions. The truth is, you are valuable. You really are. Keep believing in the beauty inside of you. Hold on to that.
