I think I've been abused
That might sound weird.
I left my boyfriend this week, we were together for almost a year. During that time my anxiety was worse than ever, I found I was absent minded, losing things all the time, I reacted badly to things he was saying, I didn't treat him well.
But he was stealing things from me, and lying about where they were. He emotionally manipulated me to believe I was the bad person, the one treating him badly. I made his depression worse. Without me he'd never want anyone again, there would be no point in carrying on.
I don't know what's real anymore, I don't know who is lying to me, what anyone feels. I need help and I have no idea where to look for it.
@endlesssky it sounds like you are going through a rough time. Based on what you said about the relationship it sounds like you both were feeling worse when you were together. It's a great step that you both decided to end things. It can be difficult when two people have different issues. Anxiety and depression are similar in nature and perhaps it was just too much to handle. You mention you think you have been abused. Do you mean emotionally because he was manipulating you? I'm sorry to hear that he was manipulating and lying to you - those are the kinds of things that make us feel insecure and anxious. You don't deserve to feel that way. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship a couple years ago and it really took a toll on me too. I am glad that you have made the decision to leave because it was no longer good for you. If I were you I would take this new freedom to heal day by day, to take care of myself and do things that I enjoy and that make me feel good. Now is a great time to heal and to spend time with people that make you feel happy and supported because you deserve to feel secure and safe and happy. Never forget your worth. Take care of yourself. And if your safety is at all threatened in any way please don't hesitate to contact your local authorities. We are here to support you emotionally here at 7 cups. You are not alone. xo
