My story, TRIGGER WARNING

I think it's about time that I share this, the fact that I've had a couple of drinks might have something to do with it but there you go,

when I was young, my dad died in a car crash and the only thing I can remember is him dying in hospital, then my mum took it badly started heavy on drugs and alcohol, and I suffered severe neglect, malnutrition and a few breathing difficulties because of the air enviroment, then she got a new partner who was abusive in all ways, I had coffe burns over me, cigarette burns all over my back, various other things, then there was the sexual abuse which explains its self, my mum didn't seem to care as long as she got her drugs, this went on for a couple f years, then I got put into foster care, for neglect not abuse they still don't have a clue that the abuse went on, I did the classic 2 years care home to care home, then I was adopted, now my current mum, she reminds me so much of my birth mum, she is also an alcoholic, and is also abusive in all ways the only difference is that she is the abusive person or instagates it, now I'm 19, with a range of possible mental health issues,, I won't let anyone speak to me for long enough to diagnose anything so I have a list of probables, my mum has no idea I have mental health issues and I don't intend of telling her, I've made numerous suicide attempts one as recent as last night, but I'm smart so no one found me after the attempt, avoiding my therapists because scared of going back into hospital