Confusion between age regression, age p**y and having se*ual protector little alter

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I have dissociative identity disorder.

I'm really confused right now. I have little alter who has been se*ually abused. She survived by turning the inevitable into her own desire. It was survival mechanism. But i don't know if she is influencing me or what but I'm suddenly into age p**y. But i also sometimes age regress. How can i know if I'm really into ageplay or not?

It's true, that the age p**y thing started when i rerembered the SA. Till that, the memory of that have been blocked.

I'm confused. Don't get me wrong i don't want my little alters to be se*ualized. It's difficult because the little alter i talked about previously, want to have se* with my partner. And i don't think that's appropriate. I don't want it to happen.

I'm sorry if it's really confusing but i don't know what to do. If I'm into age p*"y how do i not let other little alters not be co- conscious. The toys, binky etc are triggers. So would it be best if i only participated in age regression to protect the little alters? But then my own desires (if they're mine, not the se*ual little alter's) wouldn't be met. I don't mind being se*ualized but i want to protect my littles too. Do you have any ideas or some advice? Thank you for responding.