DID, Had Most Out With Me For Quite a Few Days All in a Row, So Distressed, Some are
So many have all been out for lots of constand days in a row. Amy has been very stressed and some of us too, all about the same thing. The 2 youngest do not much care about it one way or the other, as it does not really matter to them at all. the very youngest, just always wants to play, go outside and loves to just twirl around with her around stretched out, with her nice white dress on, and feeling the wind as she gets to twirl, But, some of us that are older and Amy too, who has now gone into hiding for now are quite stressed, so very deeply depressed, so confused as to what we all should come together and really decide to do for a final decision. It is very hard to come to this extremely, life changing decision. Amy battled it all her life and so have some of us. We know to not tell you what it is, as that can not be known. But, Amy so much and those of us that are also going through this are so extremely depressed, so worried about what we all may decide on, what that will lead to for our life forever, and so, so much! The deep, dark depression involved with this is getting unmanagable and almost unable to control to a level that needs to be there to safe. This is such a huge deal for Amy and for some of us also. there is nothing more major in life as far as we all see it. Please help us all make it through this for now.
@Amelia2324 Hey :) I'm not - well - I haven't been too good with words much lately and there's been alot of isolating lately
I'm sorry to hear that you're all so stressed and I really get the depression part. Things have been like that here lately. And I'm probably wrong with my thinking and I guess some words on your post jumped out at me more than others. The part about knowing not to tell and final decision - its hard - I understand how hard everything is. I hope I'm wrong with my thinking - you've all fought hard to get here. Don't - ok? Talk to someone - is there something that can help? You're not alone - we'll listen - to anything you have to say - any of you - ok? Logan thinks I'm wrong and assuming the wrong thing. But that it's something equally important and changing for you all. Idk - I tend to read between the lines - so please - you can tell me if I'm wrong
I'm sorry if I'm thinking the wrong things and saying the wrong things. I guess we mainly want you to know that you're not alone - you don't have to go through this darkness alone - we'll sit quietly with you or whatever you all need - we're here - ok?
Be gentle with yourselves and your thoughts - I'm sorry if this makes absolutely no sense at all
@mytwistedsoul
Thank you very much! It is very kind of you to respond. So very sorry that you haven't been doing too good lately and have been feeling like isolating lots. We know how that can feel and gets. We bet you have been also depressed a whole lot. Kind hugs to you and all. We, and Amy have always known to never tell about any of anything in all of life. For not telling about what Amy and some of us were posting about is a decison regarding a choice for us for what we have been battling with tons of years over. It is not a suicidal ideation, though, Amy and some of us have also been dealing with that as well. How about for you? How has your deprssion been for you? Please tell Logan, "Hi, and thanks." Our so hard, so long conflict and decision about it we are being more pressed about lately involves a combo of something that can be discussed on here, along with the other side of it, being something that can't be discissed on here. We all, and Amy, thank you so much for reaching out to us all. We wish it were just easy to talk about this, and we have nver talked abou this before in all the years. If you really knew how many years this covers, it would be a big shock. Just the place that Amy and some of us are in now, with some things in life, and being pushed by outside people and us pushing inside too, it is all getting too much to even bear, handle, or deal with. We all made it through last night. That is a good thing. We would love it if you would want to share with us about you and more about how you are doing. We care and would like to hear about you and what all you've been going through more, if it would be okay with you to want to share that with us. thank you so much! We will be thinking of you and we send gentle hugs and kindness to you.
@Amelia2324 You're welcome :) I can't tell you how glad I am that I was wrong in my thinking but I do understand the thoughts that are still there - kind of lurking in the background. Especially when things are going really bad and it's just chaos and you're getting pushed from all sides. I'm sorry you're dealing with those thoughts on top of everything else
It's not easy to talk about things - some things are secrets and those secrets - have a penalty if they're said. Like you have a gag order or well - a hand over your mouth and the ever present - shhhh in your ear. I'm sorry I don't mean to trigger you or anone else - the image made me alittle anxious tbh. It feels like some things that need to be talked about - it feels like it will k*ll you if you say it - literally
Outsiders - aside from them - what do you and yours feel is best? They're probably adding to the pressure I bet. Allthough it can be hard to come to an agreement together - like here with us probably - some are comfortable with sharing - others are not and it is so unbelieveably hard to know what the right thing to do is. Sometimes - tbh - I wish this would go away. I guess that sounds horrible but - there's time I just feel like I'm losing my mind but then there's times I'm grateful for them and the conflict in between the two - feels like it's tearing you apart sometimes. Our therapist says eventually things will get more managable - I hope so - boy do I hope so
I'm glad you all made it through the night - you're absolutely right - that is a very good thing
So - um - alittle about us. We were diagnosed alittle over two years ago - therapy started for self Harm. So it's still pretty new. We're a system of 13 - a new one came forward about two months ago. Beau. Most of us are fairly nice - some of us aren't - but we try to keep the worst one out of here - our persecutor - she's not willing to play nice. The depression used to not be as bad - anxiety was actually the biggest problem but there were things that happened - two abusers passed away - putting our dog down and then losing a safe person - my best friend - the depression deepened and with the friend - that really caused some trust issues between us and trust issues with outsiders - so - isolate. Which makes the depression worse too lol. This is pretty much how some of us socialize because we don't go out anywhere much
Logan says hello and you're welcome. Thank you for the gentle hugs and kindness :) We send some good vibes to you and yours too
I hope - you can all come to an agreement with what is best for you all and not what outsiders want or think is best - allthough they probably mean well - keep yourselves safe. You'll be in our thoughts. *sorry this got so long*
@mytwistedsoul
thank you for everything and all you shared! we are just not up to replying for now. hope you can realate or even understand. we will try our best to get back to you soond do good to find this area to the community.....had to ask from some in charge for a special like to find it again....we will really do our best to get back to you soon, just now now....not capable now. love you all.......hang in there and sure have dealt with lots of depression. hugs bye for now
@Amelia2324 Hey - its ok :) no worries. There's never any pressure or time line to reply - we definitely understand how it is
Take care ok?
@Amelia2324 Hi just checking to see how you are doing (but there is no pressure to answer).
@adventurousBranch3786
have been either asked or told, can't remember, to not reply to anyone......maybe check back in a few days and maybe I can then.
@adventurousBranch3786
Hi Branch,
Thanks for finding us and reaching out to us. 
It is very kind of you.
We do not know how you found us here. How did you find us here?
Branch,
Amy and some others resolved the problem from an outsider, with the help of someone else who understands it all, is trained to understand it all, and is so kind. The ousider who has been immensly pressuring us all to do things we do not want to do, and Amy kept trying and so did some of us, continually telling them we know, feel, and beieve what they have kept pressuring us to do, about 2 different things is so wrong for us all. Amy, and all but 2 of us believe for the 1st thing, and for what totally all of us believe for the 2nd thing that Amy and us have been being pressured about constantly.
But, still, there are a couple inside who are very unhappy about the decision to lose the outsider who was pressuring us all. Two of us liked them in lots of ways and found them so very helpful and so good to have around. The rest did also, for a quite a while. But, they, who all decided to end contact with the one pressuring all of us, we know they made a good decision, but, still the 2 of us are sad and upset about it. We two, hope to get over this with some time and learn to not have them around for us. We hope this makes some sense to you, Branch.
Branch, we shared that becasue we have been around you some, and you have always been so nice and kind. Plus, you also reached out to us.
Branch, we would really like to know more about you, if you want to let us know anything. We would just like to get to know you better and also, it is scary without knowing much. Please feel comfortable and please, we hope you can know that we are not wanting to put any kind of pressure on you. We never would want to do that, nor would Amy.
Branch, we are sorry if we sould know more at this point, and do not. If that is so, we very much appologize to you.
Branch, again, thanks kindly for finding us and reaching out to us. We hope to hear from you again, when you want and feel like it. 
Hope you don't mind - just wanted to check in with everyone. Wanted to do it sooner but had a hard time finding this thread and couldn't remember the name of it. Has the electrician finished up yet?
