I don't know what's going on...

Hello.... 

My name's Bug and recently we've been disassociating A LOT. We've ton countless hours of research to figure out what's going on with us(I say us because I've sort of taken control because we've had a very stressful day and H((I'm just calling her that)) is about to break down) What I'm sort of asking for is to ask for help. I want to know if we're just crazy or actually going through something that should be checked out professionally. I'm going to list the things that we've been going through down below:

• for months H has been feeling as if her emotions were far away or someone else's
• she's felt like she's watching a movie or watching someone else live her life
• these things became more common after a near fatal car accident which left her quite shaken up
• on Friday of last week she had her first BIG disassociation where she couldn't recognize herself in a mirror or she felt like her voice sounded like someone else's voice. As a result she started crying and was immensely terrified before I took over completely for the first time. 
• we both have different handwritings(I'm left handed while she's right handed) and I don't like having my hair touch my neck while she refuses to put hers up, as well as both having vastly different tastes in things. 
• I've been coming out a lot more over the last few days as it's been a stressful time
• she realized this morning that she almost completely forgot everything that happened last night when someone asked what she had for dinner but couldn't remember. she also found out that she did some "questionable" things on call with a friend and ended up hurting said friend but she didn't remember how or why, she only knew that people were mad at her

These are just the main things going on in our lives right now but we're not sure whether or not we're just crazy... as y'all probably know, research can only do so much to help lol. We've talked to our mom about it and I'm planning on bringing it up to a doctor next time we go but we're not sure when that will be. Please if this is anything y'all can relate to please let me know because it's honestly kind of terrifying...

with the most love I can offer,

Bug 🐞