Abortion

I’m 34, and have 4 kids.

a typical 6 year old

twin special needs and medically fragile 5 year olds

and a 11 month old.

This was not expected or planned. I’m not on birth control as I’m a cancer survivor. My husband is 100% siding with whatever i choose. He is also getting snipped. I don’t want to even think about sex anymore. I feel so guilty, stupid, and sad.

financially emotionally mentally and probably physically I can not have another pregnancy. I am super super early on and will be taking the pill form I found to be shipped to me at my home.

im worried it’ll hurt or it won’t work and then I’ll end up getting the other procedure.

I feel stupid that I thought using my period tracker and didn’t have sex around when I typically ovulate but I guess nothing is 100%. I just feel guilty because if we were millionaires and I had access to childcare and extra help at home then this wouldn’t even being said. But that’s not the case. We had a miracle surprise 4th baby last year and we decided that it was the completion of our family. I did not get my tubes tied during my c section because I was so scared it would cause me more pain and I wouldn’t be able to heal faster to be present with the other kids. My husband and I had been fine since March. Everything was on track routine. I have no idea what happened other than my hormones and or stress led me to ovulate later or earlier than I thought.

this is just hard and I do not want my family or friends to know.