Helpless

Hello there...

Well i've been traumatised last christimas and forcely hospitalized in psych ward... it haunts me in nightmares almost every night... but well...

Now im really scared... terrified... my family, which hurt me that badly and traumatized me, is now starting doing basically the same things again (manipulation etc.) and im so scared that it will lead to the psych ward again... and I really don't want to and I feel so hopeless, helpless and powerless... and I don't know what to do...

I really don't feel good at home, I wish i could go anywhere else but I can't... im 19 old and im still at school...

I just don't know how to protect myself from them and it really terrifies me... so i would be happy for any advices because I really feel so helpless and it scares me... it also hurts a lot