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Host doesn't want to change jobs

User Profile: ricebun
ricebun April 30th

Hello. I am part of a DID system  that has recently been discovering itself. I am not the host, but an independent alter that usually fronts when neither the host nor the sub-host can front. As far as I know, the rest is currently dormant due to an issue that basically destabilized the system some time ago, and I’ve been somewhat stuck here ever since. I’m currently at a bit of a loss, because our host got a job five months ago, and since then, we’ve been leaving the house five days a week, which I'm aware affects everyone else, since we grew up isolated and locked away due to neglect and a long history of trauma. This affects us all equally, including the host, but we know he considers it absolutely necessary because otherwise we’ll never be able to live a functional life. The problem is that we’ve found a remote job that would allow us to stay home again in addition to offering better pay and more benefits. However, we also know that our only interaction with the outside world has been through our current job, which allows us to talk to co-workers even if we don't really get along with everyone, and just become social. This job opportunity has led the host who has been unwilling to front the past few days, apart from being co-conscious, to create certain conflicts with me regarding moving forward with this proposal. We know deep down that this could cause us problems in the future when it comes to leaving the house, but at the same time, since most of us can’t stand going out due to paranoia and depression, we don’t know how to handle the situation. I’m suggesting to everyone that, if we quit our current job to take the remote job, we should sign up for some kind of course that forces us to leave the house at least three times a week or even daily. However, I know it’s not the same, because this would also force us to adapt to a new environment without prior preparation, at a time when most of us are going inactive. Our current job helps us with our dissociation, but at the same time it wears us out physically and mentally (PDD) from dealing with clients (we get sick a lot, too, due to chronic illness), while offering a not-so-decent pay and also being bossed around, which makes the host rage sometimes since he can't handle having to follow rules all the time. I need some advice to help us tackle this. This is one of the few times we’ve managed to try to communicate with each other, and even then we can't manage to do it right. I believe this is just a conflict on what benefits us better, while the host loves our current job even if it's not the best.

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User Profile: Amanda84
Amanda84 May 1st

@ricebun

I'm really sorry you are struggling and I appreciate you reaching out.

I hope you find the support you need here 💙

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Maybe it might help to make a pros and cons list? That way every part can contribute something and feel heard. You might want to consider the long term. If you are in therapy or seeking it, working around that with a job can be difficult. Having someone else to mediate like a therapist might also help, that way an outside person can balance both sides. Even asking other outside people might give some good insight.

It's hard to balance decisions with different parts. Even small things can be a challenge. Wishing you the best with this, and know there is never a right or wrong, because no matter what you choose you can always pivot from there and make a change later too.