I don’t know what’s wrong with me
Is it psychosis if it really happened?
Is it depression? No that’s hope and fear
Is that happiness? No that’s manic
I don’t know how to explain what is happening to me but I feel out of my normal highs and lows my normal fears and I’m so scared to go back for another “let’s try this med combo I think you have this loop” I don’t know if I have another one in me
Why did I survive if I was just going to be to jumbled up to function properly consistently.
I’m just defeated and wondering at this point if I just have everything or my brains to messed up from my abuse to come back this time fully. I’ve came back from a lot but this time was almost the last. But he didn’t take me fully my heart started again on the table I’m here…but at what cost and in what shape.
Damaged goods now
@SheToldTheSun
Have you been abused somehow?
Do you have a mental health support system?
You seem to be overwhelmed and your falling down...
I'm sorry to hear how bent out of shape you are..
There is hope and support out there for you to discover.. please keep going, we're proud of you for getting this far..🌲
@SheToldTheSun
Hello,
Thank you for sharing with us. It sounds tiring to keep trying to make sense of whats going on when you feel like every emotion or experience gets put into another category, another label, another medication combination to try.
I wonder what feels hardest right now? Sending lots of support your way. We are here to listen if you want to share more.