I had a dream about my narcissistic ex "best friend"

Following the disgard, which took place 12 years ago...

• Not only admitted to catfishing me but only latching onto me out of loneliness as year and a half later
• Since then, I felt very angry, hurt, and betrayal. I ended up retaliating against her through lashing out at her in emails
• Despite that, I have been working on forgiving her since and it's been a struggle

Over the weekend, I did two things

1. I was kind to myself by giving myself hugs and telling myself kind words by crying

2. The big one is that I had a dream about her and her husband this morning

• In the dream, I got together with her current husband, who she is possesive of while she was not around
• When he was getting ready to take me home, he stopped by their complex to talk with her.  While I didn't see her, I could hear her voice which was sweet and kind to him and another neighbor. She talked about getting together with her inlaws next weekend.   In the dream I told her off "You're mother in law's a Karen,"   I heard her suddenly get nasty, "I am not talking to you, I have a lot going on." 
• Then after that, I decided to let her go by running to get support through 7Cups and at my current church. 
• Then I woke up and decided to come talk about it.