Im scared…
LeahCaiteBee
January 10th
Im scared that i will be SA’d again and now im afraid of boys in general. Im also afraid ill be left behind so i get extremely clingy to people who I know will listen. I was always blamed for things so now i say sorry 24/7. I have bad nightmares that replay different things ive gone through. I dont know what to do anymore and im just constantly scared
Aayla
January 10th
@LeahCaiteBee what happened was not your fault, nor is your reaction. The way you are reacting is perfectly normal and legitimate. It's tough, but it's not something and uncommon, it doesn't make you weird or problematic. Don't let anything and anyone make you feel like you are the problem. You are not, and you've never been.
It's ok to protect your own peace. If you are scared, it's ok to distance yourself from boys for a while. And if talking about it a lot is something that helps you, don't feel guilty for the things that help you cope. If you find out your coping mechanism is no longer sustainable and you want to handle things differently, you can try out new ways to deal with it, maybe with the help of a therapist or an organization that supports SA victims, but always give yourself grace and remember that what happened does not define you and nor does the way you react.