Major break

I don't know if this is the right spot but hopefully it works.

I was talking in therapy and hit kind of a major break through. I've been doing all this prep work and documenting things lately related to memory loss and brain fog. Between some rough moments recently and therapy just now I realized how scared of the possibilities I am. Like top teir fears, right next to actually dying level fear. I'm shaking from opening this door. It's stupid scary what the results might be. And it's not even that the result could be dismissal and gaslightinf, it's that it might be something real and progressing, something that says I'm going to fade out lose any sense of self and it'll happen before I'm properly old. I have to lock it down for now, but it has a shape and my own acknowledgement.