My sons birthday

Hi my name is Albert my 16 yr old son took his own life 9/18/2023.....his bday is on the 29th of this month & I have absolutely no idea how I'm gonna survive it tbh.....this has been by far the most fuxd up thing 2 hapn in my life & its destroyed my family but hes just the 2nd in 4 deaths my lil sis od'd 8/9/2021 then Gavin my son then the bestest friend I've ever had had a heart attack 2/2/2024 then I lost pops 6/22/2025....my wrrld shrunk & became very lonely dark & scary.....some days if all I do is survive I consider myself lucky....but I always try 2 remember what pops told me the last time I saw him is that I had the honor & privilege of bein Gavins dad 4 16 yrs.....that's what I hold on 2...."u nvr know how strong u r til strongs all u got left"-Bob Marley that quote has helped tremendously.....safe travels