Nightmare
Well, I have been traumatised last christmas holiday... there was arguments and my own family mentally hurting me... and then they locked me in mental hospital... and I still have nightmares from that... well not that often like I used to have, but still... and I can't really talk to it with my therapist bc I need to talk about things that are more serious for me right now... but it keeps hunting me... 🙈 and im really scared that it will happen again and that im completely helpless and powerless...
And also that my therapist keeps asking about the mental hospital and if it's nessesery for me to go there again, or not. And im really worried bc Im just not gonna there ever again... it hurt me so damn much and it scares me...
And I have another one that haunts me and that when my close people (like my father) left me and I was alone and I started having suicidal thoughts bc of that (I was 12), and now I feel like im losing everyone again and im depressed for year and half without any better season... and it scares me to be left alone again... so I have strong anxiety and panic attacks and i don't know what to do... 🥺🙈
@Parllie I am really glad you reached out here--thank you for being brave and sharing what is going on for you. I don't have the answers, but I want you to know that I feel for you and am so sorry that you are going through such a challenging time. I am glad to hear that you are speaking with a therapist--it is so good to have a trained professional to help with some of these things. I wonder if it would be good for you to just share a little more with your therapist about everything that you are coping with right now. As you said, the therapy seems to have a specific focus at the moment, but I can't help but wonder if there would be a benefit to being more open with your therapist. Thanks again for sharing. I am wishing you all the best.