PTSD??
Hello and how’s life?
I keep watching life happen and nothing really gets better. I just become better at hiding. The constant feeling of being in danger, the urge to control every movement around me, avoiding people and places. I had a very good friend from school, we had a strong bond but life is weird. I stopped talking, came back, she took me back but years passed by, we all grew up and my friend started a business and I think she really wanted me to come to the opening party she did but I couldn’t… really couldn’t. My mind was all over the place …”what If someone from the old school comes, what if we are all there and someone shows up, what if she has a really good friend now that makes me remember something”. I tried to explain but I had to give up from explaining that way and simply say I can’t come, I’m so sorry … I think most people don’t get it. Maybe I could do more effort, be more, less coward but every time I try something builds up and I can’t. Sorry for this but I kinda need some wake up calls.
@MakemeCalm Hey there, I can hear how tough things have been for you lately. Life can throw us some curveballs, and it's alright to feel overwhelmed by them..You're not alone in this, though. Even when it feels like you're the only one going through this, there are people who care about you and want to support you. You don't have to have all the answers right now. Just focus on taking care of yourself and doing what feels right for you.
@phoebe1119 Thank u for this. Unfortunately I kinda have the ability to “turn off” emotions most of the time. I control myself pretty well but other times I’m just tired from all the hiding and feeling like everything is life threatening … It’s like I’m always waiting or thinking that something bad will happen or can happen. What about you? How are u feeling today?
I totally get it. I dropped out of school after my date rape and only went back bc I was shunned for not finishing college
I still feel anxiety about going back to school because I’m afraid of being taken advantage of or bullied again
@Artpractice I’m so sorry u have been through that. I’m here if u need to talk! You will be capable of doing everything u want. Believe u can.
I would like to talk… please message me if you want I am waiting for my autism diagnosis
I don’t know how to message someone
I’m new here and can’t find a way
@MakemeCalm
I can understand your experiences. I have had ptsd and dissocition for years too and I do get like this. I think that one issue is that many people dont understand the effects of trauma and what it really means to be traumatised even if you try to explain and I often wish that people themselves would actually be more supportive and accepting rather than saying that the traumatized person should sort themselves out. I think those who suffered trauma are really in need of more understanding, kindness and support. Doing even normal everyday things can be very difficult and like being weighed down
