Ptsd- anger issues
For last two years that I have ptsd . I have this explosive anger issue where I get numb and blank as if my brain short circuits and i have no control of myself I just become this beast .I once had a fight which wasn't even required i just some how over reacted. See i really love my brothers i can kill and die for them . yet one day I just pulled out a hammer and started banging on my brother's door he didn't even know I would react like that . Then few months ago out of fit of anger i had pulled out knife on my older brother.
Worst was when my mother and i were arguing about something and i just pulled up a screwdriver and hitted it on the table 9-10 times in anger .I told my doctor about this they gave me medications but ever since withdrawal symptoms I refused to take them and tapered them to complete pause ..but now i am facing the issue of anger burst out again with sudden zapps on my right side and it makes me feel dizzy .I feel very lost and vulnerable after a fight . I was never like this i won fights and now I can't even bear raising voice. I can't even remember why I was fighting or my head starts spinning .I really don't know what to do I am so tired of this. U guys have any tips how can I handle this stuff. I am running out of options .
@ivorySailboat6503
It sounds like something neurological is happening to you. Sometimes it's necessary to be persistent with doctors and/or ask for specialist referrals. Medications often have to be adjusted or changed. It can take a while, maybe even months to find a med routine that can be helpful. Regardless of how long it takes to arrive at a working med routine, as long as you're working on it, you're making progress. It's rare that a med regimen can completely solve PTSD issues, but it can create the mental/emotional conditions in which therapy is beneficial.
As far as coping strategies, one of my most common ones is, at the first sign of feeling triggered, to get away from anyone who might be hurt. Sometimes I walk for miles until I'm feeling calmer and have burned off a lot of energy. I've screamed into pillows. I've distracted myself with hobbies. I used to lift weights, but now I have a lot of landscaping projects, which pretty much accomplishes the same thing.
It takes some getting used to if you want to really understand when you're starting to feel triggered, but it's doable. If it's too hard to anticipate when the triggers occur, it may help to simply remember when they've occurred in the past, so when similar circumstances are encountered, you can in some way separate yourself physically or emotionally from the stressor/trigger.
I hope this helps. Feel free to message me if you wish.
