TW - Medical Trauma

TW -  Just in case....  I have past Medical Trauma.  A recent medical procedure experience deepened that trauma and my trust is very limited when it comes to medical staff.  I haven't ever met anyone that has dealt with this type of trauma before.  Regular therapy feels like I'm repeating my story when I really need someone to relate to.  It's tough.  Not the easiest type of trauma to understand.  

I recently had a breast biopsy and expressed my past trauma anxiety and the need for being numb and having support.  3 staff members acknowledged but when the procedure began, the pain was so horrible I screamed for them to stop.  The response was "We only want to have to do this once."  They finished and I was shaking so bad afterward.  One nurse seemed to care and gave support.  

I wrote a letter to that facility regarding their conduct and not a soul has acknowledged it.  No letter, no phone call, no email.  Nothing.  It's almost like they got what they wanted and disappeared.  I guess this is why people wait until the last minute to get care or never at all.  I relive this every day.  I lay in bed at night and think about it; my heart races and I just don't sleep well.  

Thank you for allowing me to share.