TW The Trap Was intriguing to me and exciting as a child
As a child at the age of five my mom was trapped by a babysitter's husband during her divorce to my dad at the babysitter's house she showed up unannounced to try to kidnap my brother and I from the babysitter's house so the babysitter's husband stood against the front door preventing her from taking my brother and I have the front door she escaped with us to her Vega her blue two door Vega where she put my brother and I in the back seat of the car after she had us in the backseat of the car my mom and the babysitter's husband began to skip around her car and when she was skipping I heard her say dinky dinky this is stinky let me go she kept on saying that for about 5 until they got into the car and got into a fight the babysitter's husband threatened to break up my mom's arms if she did not get her car keys to him and my mom told him not to fart in her car and got out and started skipping around the car again until my dad showed up I gained a hero and role model that day because my mom wasn't supposed to be there and I used to play with the babysitters kids her son and her daughter the babysitter's husband will always be my hero and role model I have ended up practicing all the moves by standing against the door and skipping around my own car I practice because I have hatred toward my mom still to this day I see a therapist because of this situation
Looking forward to when my therapist graduates from college because when she does I'm going to be a permanent client of hers and I'm going to see if she wants to invite mom to the session or to a session and confront mom about to past And then I'm going to have a skip agreement for Mom to sign and we will skip around Mom's car in a park and say words to each other and before we leave the office we're going to have one firm handshake where we say dinky dinky to each other
I'm very good at blocking doors I learned it very well from my hero and role model to babysitter's husband
I'm good at blocking doors and skipping around vehicles I learned from my hero and role model
I'm good at blocking doors and skipping around vehicles I learned from my hero and role model
I learned at a young age how to block doors and how to skip around cars by my hero and role model who was protecting me and my brother from being kidnapped from his house My mom after she was confronted by the babysitter and her husband put me in her car and took me around the corner and asked me an adult question whether or not she should go back into the house after they took their children and my brother into their house so that when my mom and I went back in we went up the stairs because it was a split level house and then the babysitter's husband started standing against the front door and I started waving to him as my mom went to the kitchen to get on the phone
So so my mom showed up to the babysitter's house and I was playing with the babysitter's children in one corner of the driveway and they were confronting my mom The babysitter and her husband they told her she was either too late or too early after that they took their children inside and my brother inside and then my mom drove me around the corner and asked a four or five-year-old She should go back into the house after that incident I found out later in life after their divorce was over with that my mom used to lock me in my bedroom when I cried she couldn't handle it She was young and naive back during my dad and mom's divorce
I know I have two sides to me I have the Jennifer / Jason side The Jason side is barbaric from what I learned from one of my therapists The Jason side would do everything suddenly and against mom's will just like the babysitter's husband did if the opportunity arose the Jennifer side is peaceful side wants to confront mom in a peaceful way in front of therapist and have a mother and daughter day after work doing an activity like skipping around mom's car in park for fun
On days like today I'm able to stand against my door for a while and sometimes it could feel quite enjoyable
On days like today I'm able to stand against my door for a while and sometimes it could feel quite enjoyable
I feel like if I had the opportunity I would be able to do everything the same way as the babysitter's husband did to my mom to her myself that is why I see it therapist
