Teeny & Victoria's turtle shell hideout
Hey Victoria,
hope you don't mind me tagging you, I'm wary I don't want to offload to you too much and put weight on your shoulders , but you asked how emdr was going, and also I needed to write it out to process it all anyway :')
Had first proper session. Also probably last for a while as I transition to adult mental health services. We concentrated on what we think is the route - how school treated me as an undiagnosed autistic. It's weird how much it helped, to the point its kind of freaking me out. Now I'm confused as to what to think of the people. Was it their fault? Should I feel anger? or compassion? were they 'good' or 'bad' people?
I'm so drained and my head is all fuzzy.
anywayyyys. how's Vic? (can I call you that? what do you prefer?)
Thank you for helping and being so lovely on PAT (: stealing the phrase, but you are turtley amazing d:
Are you in rooms on oldie side a lot? Just wondering for when I turn into oldie :0 super nervous.
Meeting so many new people in the next few weeks. Brain is fried. More fried than a fried egg.
Sorry if I've said too much.
Silly me forgot to tag you 🤦 @VictoriaLove7
@teenytinyturtle
Hi turtle 🐢 😁
Thank youu for creating turtley awesome space. The 'turtley amazing' phrase is Sunshine's 🌞❤ phrase, if I remember correctly 😃
Yes yes, I'd like to hear about the treatment that you go through. It is usually helpful to write it so our mind won't be full of things that make us worry.
Also, some persun said 😄 Sunshine 🌞 said that our mind is not a notepad, so do not keep things in our mind.
Undiagnosed autistic seem kinda confusing so, they cannot diagnose you, but they said it's autistic. 🤓
I think you should be compassionate to yourself too, and maybe to yourself first. Cuz I can see that you are kinda a selfless person (🐢 😁)
(That reminds me of a self love growth path! 😃 )
Yes yes, you can call me Vic 😄 Thank *you* for working hard in PAT! You're turtley awesome too (Sunshine 🌞❤ we borrow chu phrase 😄 )
I rarely hangout in chatrooms cuz I feel sleepy a lot lately 😄 When will you turn oldie? 🐢
Where will you meet the new people? We sometimes feel nervous when meeting new people but maybe they are more nervous us. What makes you worried about meeting new people? Would you like to share? 😇
Brain fry is nu fun, usually when we feel burn out. Is there anything you enjoy doing to relax? 🤗
Nu need to be sorry, I like to hear how you are doing, turtle 🐢
Sunshine has a lot of useful phrases hehe. I like that mind is not a notepad one.
hehe sorry, I meant I'm diagnosed now, (only a few months ago at 17), but I've of course been autistic, and undiagnosed the rest of my life 🤪
I turn oldie mid august, so I think my account moves over 1st Sep. I'm glad there's at least a few of you I know through PAT (:
I meet both new people with my therapists, one with one, one with the other, super confusing smh. I think because they have an important role (one helping me to find work, one mental health) , lots relying on it.
Brain fry is going to have to continue for a bit. Going to have to mask later a lot. Oh wellll. Its life 😀 At least I can sleep all day tomorrow 🤭 oh and maybe make some PAT posts 😛
@teenytinyturtle
Yes yes, Sunshine 🌞❤ have lots of useful and wholesome phrases! 🥳
Yayy! you'll be oldie soon, then you can hangout in chatrooms 😁
It is great to have them helping you navigate things with finding work and mental health support. Have you found the work?
I read how to cope with brain fry. There are several ways, you can try to do one thing at a time instead of trying to get all finished, exercise, and get some sleeps. So, have you been able to sleep more today? 🐢
@victorialove7 naughty 7cups was playing games and didn't give me a notification smh. sorry, I didn't mean to ignore you.
3 weeks left til I'm an oldie eek. I meet my new mental health worker tomorrow. super nervous, but I'll have my current care co with me. I found a bit of work, and have another interview on Saturday, but its at a coffee shop and I think sensory overload will occur :')
I have had little sleep 🤭
How's Vic doing?
@teenytinyturtle
naughty 7cups 🤭
Maybe the app you use need to be updated? I haven't updated mine, cuz, why updating it if it still works 😁
I hope your new mental health worker is a nice person, I think they are excited to meet you teeny! 🐢🤗
Working at a coffee shop is awesome! you can get free coffee everyday 😃 are you gonna be the barista?
Try not to think too much about the interview, just consider it like chit chat ☺I'm glad you got some rest😴
I'm okayish, but I don't know how to not feel anxious *_* (I can't tell the specific story cuz this is an open space )
@VictoriaLove7
I never update it unless it does it automatically 🤭 or unless it comes up everytime I open cups and just annoys me so much I update it to shut it up 🙄
I hope they are nice. I'm going to ask them if they like turtles and if the answer is no then I'm going to be like 'bye bye' 😀 (maybe I'll give her a few more opportunities to prove herself but you know...)
Its one of the chain coffee shops though, Costa, and I worry I won't be able to keep up. And yes, a barista 😮😀
ew yucky anxiety, leave Vic alone, she doesn't need you, you don't deserve her. smh. you can share as much as you want to, but yeah, I get its not always possible to do in open space. Now I don't know if this makes sense, but is it a panic anxious or anxious anxious? I don't know about you, but I find when I'm panicky anxious, I need to do something to ground me, hold ice, anything like that, or anxious anxious I have to use my dbt skills to actually work through them. I hope you get a break from being anxious 🥺💜
I fly on my own in two weeks eek eek! only from England to scotland, but its becoming a bit more real 😮 what do you think of flying?
what're Vic's hobbies?
@teenytinyturtle
Yes yes, I agrees no need to update unless it doesn't let us using it unless we update, like some apps 🙄
Give them questions about turtles or ninja turtles 😄 do you know ninja turtle cartoon? 🐢
That's even better, a chain coffee shop! 😃 You will be able to keep up, you'll be the turtley awesome new barista!
It's anxious anxious *_* and worry of something trigerring. 😵
I like flying, turtle! 🐢 How many hours will it take? I hope you'll enjoy it too, think about looking at the sky, the sun, the cloud, through the airplane window (choose the window seat, it's better than aisle seat. Unless you need to use bathroom frequently.) I even like the chiming sound of seat belt ☺
@VictoriaLove7
how are you doing now? 💜
I didn't get the job :( oh well.
hope anxiety is better? if you worry of triggering me, super unlikely.
only an hr and a half flight I think. more time landing and taking off than flying probably tbh hehe. not far from England to Scotland.
I'm on oldie side now. I don't like it.
@teenytinyturtle
Hi turtle 🐢
It's okie maybe it isn't that good job, you can try another coffee shop. Are there other chain coffee shops?
(I meant to say I was worried of something that's triggering to me *_* )
you're an oldie now, what is it that you nu like?
have you tried mcr?
@teenytinyturtle
I forgot to reply you..
nu it's not getting better the trigger is hogging area I frequently use 🥲
@victorialove7
nuuuu :/ *hugs* anything I can do to help?
@teenytinyturtle
I don't know turtle *_*
this is an open space.. :(
now you're oldie, do you have l account?
@Teenytinyturtle
Teeny 🐢☺
@victorialove7
hugs hugs
tired, sad, grumpy teeny.
how are you? miss you
@teenytinyturtle
Hugs hugs teeny 🐢🤗
😧 What is it that makes you sad? If you'd like to talk about it? 🐢
@VictoriaLove7
home is tough, like really really. people keep making comments and trying to make light of it with jokes, and I join in but I feel guilty. but then also can't stand up for mum because its all true. work just gave me more hrs which need for money but also overwhelming.
Ed is bad at the moment. And now I'm worried I'm going to get food poisoning from tonight food.
and then thought amazon order of new pen for stickers digital art would cheer me up and its just annoying me because its not aligned right. grumpy grumpy.
tell me about youuu 💜 if you want to of courseee
@teenytinyturtle
@teenytinyturtle
😧🐢 hugs hugs
It must be hard when everything do not go as we want them and it seems nothing is right. But you when you tried to make light with jokes, you tried to lighten up things too, so you meant well. I think your mom will understand too.
More work hours is more money, if ok to ask, do you really need them, cuz if you overwork yourself, you might get too tired and it will affect mood. Can you still get 8 hours of sleep everyday? 😧
do you feel your tummy aching now? 😧 I googled the cure for food poisoning is by drinking plenty of water. Once you start eating again, try gentle and bland foods, like crackers.
I don't know what I feel Teeny..
@teenytinyturtle
Teeny 🐢🤗, how's you?
*brings burger 🍔 for Teeny 🐢*
