The Weight of Human Nature
I had another emotional breakdown last night, triggered by a video claiming people used to act better in the past. I’ve seen enough to know cruelty never went away — it just moved from public spaces to digital ones. Human nature itself weighs on me. I see how easily it drives people to hurt each other, and it’s one of the reasons I’ve lived like a hermit for so long.
I stumbled across videos of people on drugs, and all I could think was, “How much pain do they have to be in to do stuff like that?” It made everything feel heavier. This world overwhelms me, and I can’t stand how people treat one another, and I’m tired of seeing their demons.
@ICJTech The world really does feel too heavy sometimes. The Internet has made it so we see too much of other's pain all at once. It is overwhelming and heartbreaking.
@ICJTech I agree on that social media can sometimes upset and hurt us.
I appreciate all the support, and I’m sorry if it seemed like I didn’t at first. I’m just scared of having a major breakdown that could put me in the hospital, and I don’t really know where else to talk about how I feel online, so I come here because it’s one of the few places that feels genuinely supportive. I do agree that I need more fresh air and exercise, and I really wish I lived somewhere I felt safe enough to do that, but I don’t. I’m in a bad neighborhood, and it makes even simple things feel out of reach. I keep hoping that someday I’ll be able to move somewhere better, take nature walks, shop at farmer’s markets, maybe even join a co‑op. Thank you guys for your posts.
