The roller coaster

Hello, I would like to first greet this thread. Im one of those people that tends to overthink I distract myself or try to all the time. Or think worst case scenarios. I feel a weight on me that shouldn't be mine. I keep thinking maybe next year will be better like a fresh start, even though I started a while ago. I have things to look forward to. Just been doing my best, I feel I want to cry, I don't want to.