**Trigger Warning** I might delete this soon

Honestly I don’t know how to start this. My boyfriend has suddenly stop communicating with me for about 2 weeks. I didn’t find it unusual at first since we were long distance and he is managing a business and at the same time he is currently working for a company as well. A very close friend of ours which is also his co-worker told me that he hasn’t seen my boyfriend for about a week now and he is worried as well, so I asked him if he could come to his apartment to check on him since he isn’t answering his phone. He went to his apartment, he kept on knocking but he wasn’t answering as well, I gave him the pin to his apartment and he got in, when he got in my boyfriend wasn’t speaking that much when he was asked what happened? he said he was fine. Then finally our friend was able to convince him to atleast talk to me. So he called me and he told me what happened, he was sexually assaulted by one of the boss from his company, he got drugged and he woke up the next day, he didn’t know what happened he said he was just called by the management, they were discussing something to him then he passed out. I don’t know how I would honestly help him, seeing him blaming himself for everything, he said its his fault and he’s sorry that he neglected me and he said he didnt wanna tell me because it would hurt me, he dont know when it happened anymore because he couldnt look at the date. I told him none of it was his fault and he shouldn’t blame himself. He did told me that he wanted me to just distract him so he wouldnt think of it. Which I did, I asked our friends if we could watch a movie together and we did talk like nothing happened. I made sure before I join the call, that they wont noticed that I cried and I pretended that nothing is bothering me and I tried my best to act like normal, where I would joke around and laugh with them. (These friends are his close friends as well so they are aware of what happened) I just dont really know how else I could help him, I’m scare that it would happen again, he can’t leave the company as well since he has a contract and he would threaten him since they are big. I just really dont know if what I’m doing is helping him. I didnt wanna show him my weakness that I’m hurt and in pain as well because of what happened to him. I wanted to focus on how I can help him and not on my pain.