What the hell happened at my high school?!
I have hardly any memories of my 9th and 10th grades.
I was a good student and had a good group of friends till the 6th grade or so. I was active in the class and well- liked by the teachers. But things started changing as I entered the high school. I was still the 'good student' but lost all friends but one. I have absolutely no memories of these two years except images that feel like they're from dreams. I feel like I've blanked out some memories because they're too traumatic. I think I may have been bullied. Although I don't remember the specific incidents but I remember me crying a lot at home and not wanting to go to school. I don't think my grades slipped a lot but I do think many people in the class deeply hated me. I think my life now is affected by these experiences. I just don't know how to access these memories or what to do with it.
@independentZebra1024
Sorry to hear this is causing you so much stress 🫂 being unable to recall entire parts of your life is scary and can make you feel really lost and helpless. I hope you're able to find some peace.
Are you able to speak to a therapist about this? It's not my place to diagnose you as an internet stranger, but you may want to speak to someone who specializes in topics like disassociative disorders and repressed memories. It is possible to regain awareness with the guidance of a professional who is trauma-informed and knows how to help navigate these things.
Thank you, I will talk to my therapist about this