here again

my dad hit me in the jaw like almost 24 hours ago and i havent slept because its still hurting so bad. doesnt seem to have left a mark though. wish i could say the same for the injury he gave me just under a month ago now, which has permanently scarred my face. its not too bad but still. im not that upset anymore. i feel really dead. nothing makes me happy anymore. im just vaguely bitter and wishing i had just never existed.