transduction to my previous thread

First, I apologize if this is poorly translated or something...

I'm 18 years old, I'm a woman, I've already suffered two cases of sexual abuse, and it's complicated, it's strange, I feel strang

The first time was when I was 17, while I was traveling to Colombia. One of the friends I shared a room with touched me, and I felt bad. When I returned home, everything was so weird. I told my mother. I felt pressured to report it, even though I wasn't ready for that because I didn't want to, I didn't want to do anything to the other girl. I felt guilty, I felt like I was exaggerating, and... well, I was at the psychologist for a couple of weeks, and he didn't really help at all. He just showed me psychology videos on YouTube and... nothing els

The second time it was a teacher a month after I turned 18 (I feel stupid for having trusted him for having fallen for something like that for the second time) he invited me to "a coffee" I really thought it was all that I trusted that teacher and then when we saw each other he took me to his house, I followed him I don't know why I did that he started kissing me I told him to stop I told him I didn't want that he made me touch him I felt nervous I was scared I tried to ask for help by sending a message to a friend but the teacher noticed and I got scared so I left my phone he took me to a room so I resigned myself and just let him do it and played along aaam I didn't report it or anything and I also feel like an idiot for that, because of me there may be other victims I'm such a fool aaaaaa and it still affects me to this day (it was November 2024) I have too many things I want to talk about, but I think that That's a lot no

I may not have everything clear, but… thanks for reading if you've made it this far.