Abuse? Rape? I
I recently found out that when my parents married my brother would take me out side to play,I was 6. He would pin me to the ground and touch me. And I started talking to my best friends older brother about a year ago while he was in the military. We talked for seven months and when he came home he told me we were going on a date, he really picked me up, Took me in the house and told me to pick a room. So I did, and we started kissing and he asked if I was okay with it going further,I said okay. But as soon as he started going in I told him it hurt and began to close my legs,he pried them back open and continued to force himself inside. I bled for two weeks. I dont know that its considered rape because I originally agreed,but I dont understand and I dont feel safe around most men anymore.
Legally, you need a lawyer to set that in law context. All I can tell youis that I wouldn't have done smth like that. I cannot imagine doing that to someone, anyone and especially someone I care about...😔😔😔 losing one's virginity can be traumatic, so great care must be taken...I am sorry for you that you were forced like that...😔😔😔
@DonneMoi
thank you for your response.
@idkguess
first off you are so brave to share your story. From my my own experiance I had this same question when trying to make sense of it. My question to you is does a lable really matter? Or are you looking to focus on healing from that experiance. In my case The truama from my experiance made intimacy difficult and I had a lot of anxiety surrounding sex. In my opinion no is no regardless of when it occurs.no one deserves to be forced upon after making their needs and wants clear. Many blessings to you and I hope as your healing unfolds you find your answers and unconditional self love. Xoxo
@Samamor
thank you for your response, I really want to heal from this. I have a new boyfriend that I adore and have know for years. And I want to heal and become more comfortable in a sexual sense with him,but after everything that happened Im afraid. Everything seems to play on repeat.