Anything will help
Im 25 now. When i was a kid i had 2 dads. My mom didnt know who so she aloud both in my life i took my brothers dads last name and spent weekends there and the other dad was the neighbor i would try to spend time with during the week. The neighbor molested me when i was 9 an raped me when i was 11. I spent my life till 14 in mental hospitals because my mom couldnt "deal" with me. I was raped again February 5th 2018 by a stranger while i was incapacitated. Ive been diagnosed with ptsd and a superimposed mood disorder with chronic depression. Im active in therapy and trauma group. But ive felt like this my whole life. I dont see a future i live on auto piolet most the time i dissociate my life doesnt seem real i feel like a big joke and i always have pain in my chest. My family seems fed up with "dealing" with me and i just want to disappear.
@reservedCurrent255
I'm sorry to hear that you have encountered traumatic experiences such as these. I have also been through traumatic incidents in my life, where people have chosen to do things which they should not have done to me. I don't think that anybody deserves for these types of negative things to happen to them, and I hope that you don't blame yourself for what has happened, or perceive those events to be your own fault. Nobody deserves to be purposefully harmed by others in these types of ways.
I am sorry to hear that you're encountering challenges with your family, and knowing which direction to take in your life. I think that it's positive that you're currently receiving therapy, and participating in a trauma support group. Do you find that these activities are providing any support for you? Have you tried, or thought about setting small goals for yourself? Perhaps setting some small objectives, and reaching them, will allow you to feel a bit better.
Wishing you all the best. I hope you can receive the support which you are seeking here. There are survivors of trauma here who have gone through similar experiences that you have, whom you can connect with. Good luck!