Dear Diary *no reply’s plz*

I writing to say what I can’t to anyone else. It’s hard to talk about because I’m supposed to not waste my energy on this anymore ... my abuser/stalker fb messaged me which goes against my protective order... I know that I will have to turn it in if it happens again because I have blocked his new account so I’m seeing if he makes another... I guess. But I can’t help thinking that he deserves to suffer for reaching out to me on Valentine’s Day and making me panic. It’s my first year being married and he has the guts to send me a message on a new fb when he is fresh out of jail.... like come on?!? Do you want me to go turn you in for violating the PO? I just had it put in place not even a year ago... for this reason....Wasting my time by sending a message and doing what he always does and poisons my mind with his bs. I hate him for making me look over my shoulder ...in fear for my life. I know this seems extreme but if you knew him you would understand...