Dear diary...

I’m writing this down because if I talk about it anymore I’m gonna turn blue. My best friend just gave up. 9 years of being there for each other and then poof! Gone! Not even a goodbye. I don’t know what I could have done to bring this on. I recently got married and she’s recently pregnant with her first child. I wanted nothing by happiness for her. I don’t know what happened... she said that I was fading out of her life and being selfish because I’ve been busy traveling with my husband for work. I can’t possibly be there for her in person 24/7. It’s just not possible for me rn. I just know my other friends have heard her side of things and think I’m terrible. That’s just not the case. I’ve said sorry over and over. I don’t even remember what about. I’ve gave her 3 different times to mend this with me but she won’t ... it’s awful. I have told her that sometimes being so far away can cause miscommunication... but she doesn’t wanna hear that. She wants to fight me. Fine... this is why I find it hard to have friends. 9 years. Gone.