Diary *Possible TW*
I thought about starting a diary place to share and reflect on my feelings. I am trying to navigate through schizophrenia and ptsd and trying to not let it define me. I hope writing about it is productive for me. Any replies are welcome!!
I'm sorry about your schizophrenia and PTSD.
I understand you are taking steps to manage the situation. Starting a diary to share your feelings is what some people will also like to do.
@nide12 thank you. It makes me feel better sometimes to write and it sometimes makes it less confusing and I think one by one
@hillsideblues Hey you ❤️ How are you? You were in my thoughts today. I saw a video that made me think of you and your new friend. It was about someone that has schizophrenia and a service dog helps him distinguish what's real and what isn't with some of his hallucinations. Especially people. I was thinking how useful that could be in a case like that.
I hope you're safe and trying to be kind to yourself ❤️ sending you hugs
@hillsideblues Sending you hugs ❤️
@mytwistedsoul hugs to you as well if that's ok ❤️ I don't have a dog but I think it'll be nice to have someone help me with confusion and seeing real in the dimension. I don't have any friends in the facility home except the nurse and no one visits me but I spend time coloring
@hillsideblues 
Happy Coloring ( I love to color too). ❤️😊
I went out for a walk today. It was nice. I forgot the last time I went outside for a walk because I think I end up staying inside in my room and forget time. But it was nice to walk. I don't even do alot of things in my room. I keep thinking and thinking and looking. I don't like therapy sessions anymore as well. I forget what the doctor is saying and I just want to go back to my room and stay there. I got a bad seizure thing in the middle of the therapy session and my body got like stuck again. I'm not sure if this is how I'll live forever or what will happen next. My dad and some relatives visited me a few times at the start but now no one visits and idk what anyone is even doing. But that's ok because I'm also trying to understand voices. I don't like going to any group classes. I just wish that when I've my next catalepsy episode I just remain fixed like that forever and no one comes to move me or help me
@hillsideblues Hey you ❤️ It's so nice to see you here. I'm glad you got to take a walk outside. It must be so frustrating for you having to try to understand the voices and having these seizures. I wish they could find something to help make you better so you can get back to living life. I'm sorry that no one has been coming to visit. 😞 My heart aches for you Hill because you deserve so much more from life and people. I wish there was something we could do to help you. 😞
Sending you lots of hugs ❤️
@hillsideblues Hill ❤️ You've been on my mind the past few months. I just wanted you to know you were in someone thoughts and they're wishing you well. Hoping that you're safe and healthy. Sending hugs ❤️ Miss you Hill
@mytwistedsoul Hi. I hope things are ok ❤️ I'm ok but sick. I've not been here in so many months. Everything got really confusing but I'm ok. You're always so nice to me. I wish so many good thing for you
@hillsideblues Omgosh Hill! It's so wonderful to see you! I'm sorry to hear you're sick. I hope you feel better soon! It has been a while since you were here. I have to admit I've missed you. I'm glad you're doing ok. I always hope you're doing ok and are safe and have good people helping you ❤️
@mytwistedsoul thank you. It's so nice to see you as well. You're too kind. ❤️ I'm still at the facility and everything was confusing I started having too many seizures things and they really isolated me from everything but I think the new medicines im taking have made it bit better and I'm not scared of shadow people anymore
@hillsideblues I am so glad that this new medicine is making things better. Even just a bit better is progress. I'm glad to hear that the shadow people don't scare you anymore ❤️ I keep you in my thoughts and prayers that things continue to get better for you. Much love to you Hill ❤️
@mytwistedsoul alot of love to you as well ❤️❤️
@hillsideblues Thank you ❤️❤️
