Diary ||TW: Neglect/abuse

So, ever since my mother left my father, I thought that my life situation would improve a lot. So far, that hasn't been the case. My dad may have been more obvious in his intention, about him generally not caring about my well-being. My mother, generally trying to 1-up him, by being extra good to me, to make him look worse. Well it worked, because she got full-custody of me overall. The bad thing is that, after she won, she started minimizing anything I said to try and convince her about the trauma I had been through, and my need for therapy. Saying that I would "get over it", and what not. Well surprise surprise. I ended up developing nightmares, and flashbacks from the trauma I recieved. So I told her about this, and she said she'd "look into therapy" for me. It has been months, and nothing has changed. I've tried to look into myself, except as it stands with me being 17, I can't really afford it by myself. So far, it's only gotten worse unfortunately. Suddenly stuff like personal hygeine related items has become a "luxery" that I cannot purchase without her explicit consent. And it's not like we're hurting for money either, she's a massage therapist. As I'm homeschooled (always have been), she's supposed to be helping me to learn my subjects, but now I'm struggling, since she's not helping, and according to her, tutors are "too expensive" This is rediculous, but I don't feel it's enough to make a claim, or for anyone to take me seriously, since I'm not being starved, or dying. Since I'm turning 18 in a year, I really want to move out as soon as possible, but I worry with my low fundings from basically doing everything for me, myself, it won't be enough. I'm not sure what to do anymore.